yay
i got to see & ride spicer today! that made me smile so much! i barebacked him, because there was a storm comming in, so i knew as soon as id get all tacked up, it would start storming. he was really good. just walk/trot cuz it was muddy .. and super windy. he was slightly spooked by the whistling wind .. but its ok .. he didn't do too bad. i kept rubbing his neck and telling him it was ok. he HATES storms & wind. poor little guy. brought home the english saddle & some of the poles for our jumps to put in the basement for the winter season. still got more to do tomorrow.
field trip tomorrow for our stop skit practice. oh yay. im so excited, cant you tell?
mall on friday because we dont have school. i really need LONG cords. yeah. fun times i know. next week my parents might take me to see IUP. go figure; i get to see the college AFTER i send in the application.
yah, thats right. i turned in not one but TWO applications today. IUP and Kent State. That's exciting, I know!
it was * so * nice to see Rick today. i got to sit in his car from like 700 till 730 .. and i was just like, yay! i had to give him a brief over view of in cold blood from what he was supposed to read, but its ok, bc thats what im there for .. ;)
so i totally missed musical auditions. which is ok. somebody asked me today why i didnt audition, and i said i didnt have a reason to. it sort of popped out, but once i thought about it, it was true. i dont have a reason. freshmen year i auditioned for my grammie .. sophmore year i auditioned for my grammie again [she was always my one reason to sing .. i wanted her to see i took after her] .. junior year i auditioned for ben and billy .. and senior year .. i had absolutly no reason to audition. not for myself, i guess ive realized im just not passionate about it anymore. i - like - to sing. its fun to do musicals. but i have a job this winter .. and since i cant ride my horse .. i might as well work to make tons of money. i dunno. i guess yeah.
i hate it that im going to college for writing. then theres people that are just SO FREAKIN GOOD AT IT and they aren't going for writing. or they're too young. its like, why can't i be good? why cant i be good at something for once in my life.
i seriously am counting down the days for christmas. i am so excited to see brian. i just want to wrap my best friend in the biggest fucking hug ever. last time i made the mistake of letting go, and this time its going to take a lot longer then five minutes for me to let go.
thanksgiving is in a few weeks. food. more reason for me to get fat :(
i have nothing else to say for now.