[ONESHOT] Run Away
Title: Run Away
Author: asdfghjklhynne ; former lhynnechan
Pairing: past YunJae (Yunho x Jaejoong)
Genre: Angst, past Romance
Length: Oneshot; wrote in ipad so no wordcount
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Merely a product of my imagination, so don't hate me for this. Also, I don't own the pairing and the song used.
Summary: I just have to say it's over. I think you feel the same.
a/n: based on the song title itself, by kim jaejoong. PLEASE LISTEN TO IT WHILE READING THIS. i just had to write another yj breakup angst fic because of this song, don't hate me. :x my angst feels for this song is endless ugh /crawls back under my comforter
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Woke up on my working desk. Again.
Everything's a mess. Even the sunlight.
It was another empty Tuesday morning, except my filthy work desk. Faint alcohol and burnt cigarette filled the whole working room. I stared hard on the song composition I wrote before I fell asleep. At the uppermost corner of the paper, there was a certain name written on it. Doodled with cursed words. Alcohol did the talking again. Fuck.
It was all about my ex-lover, Jung Yunho.
가두 불렀었어
It's the end of the road
이별했어두 다시 다 보내도
널 아꼈기 때문에 보낼 수 없었어
(I called for you even when you left
It's the end of the road
Even though we broke, even if I let you go all the way
Because I cared for you, I couldn't let you go)
(6 months ago)
Worn and exhausted, I sat in front of my house gate while chugging down the soju. I pulled out my handphone from my pocket. Grinning, I saw Yunho's number. I even giggled when I read 'My Lovely Yunho-yah' on the screen name. I was so drunk that I didn't imagine dialing it after half a year of break-up. Only tonight.
"*Hic* Hello? Oh, my lovely Yunho-yah~! Hihihi. Me? Doing good, doing great! I just realized I'm fine without you. Well, before I met you I WAS DOING GREAT ALREADY. I didn't complain when I saw her beside you on the studio this morning because I know we already break up. I even said my greetings though I wanted to rant her about the things you screw in your relationships. Because I fucking cared about you and--"
An unfamiliar voice of a man interrupted my crazy rants.
"I'm sorry sir but you got a wrong number."
My drowsiness was easily vanished. I quickly closed my handphone and stared at nothingness of the quiet neighborhood. I just embarrassed myself to a random person on this kind of hour. Whose fault is that?
"You changed your number that fast?! You jerk!" I sobbed even harder on the gate step.
Why am I turning into a pathetic slut whenever I get drunk? I should change this habit away.
I just have to say it's over
I think you feel the same
(5 months ago)
"I need space."
"No, Jung--"
"Or maybe we just have to end this."
"Yeah, you're right. Nothing is working anymore."
He couldn't look me in the eye. I knew it wasn't just an I-need-space thing.
대신 수위 센 해일 위
너를 태워 커진
허망한 love 잊겠고
(Instead, above a high water level in a tsunami
I will burn you
To forget our engorged vain love)
(5 months ago)
"Jae, have you heard the news? Yunho and Soojin are now together!" Junsu broke the news to me.
"So?"
"Is this the reason?"
"Junsu, five words. I don't give a fuck."
I lied. I threw whatever I'm holding to the nearest wall.
시작될 거여 나도 피곤해
새로이 길 찾아서 벗어 나갈게
아꼈을까 왜 이제 잡아뒀을까
(It will start, I too am tired
I will find a new path and get away from this
Why did I care for you, why did I cage you in)
I sang a bit of the lines, tasting the bitterness. It felt like yesterday.
왜 널 웃게 해주려 할땐
You just run away
내게 노력했다 하지 마
아무것도 안 미워해
왜 날 자랑해게 할땐
You just run away
(Why is it when I try to make you laugh
You just run away
Don't tell me I didn't try
I don't hate anything
Why is it when you made me love you
You just run away)
My mind drifted back to one year ago... where all things are still fine the way they are. But now, it's over. I have nowhere to return. No one will carry me gently on the bed whenever I end up sleeping on my working room. I have no one to argue petty little things. I don't have to become suspicious anymore. I learned how to let go of my regrets. I am once again, belong to no one.
Thanks for the lesson, Jung Yunho. I have learn how to run away without regrets.
Life goes on.
I'm fine.
#runaway
Author: asdfghjklhynne ; former lhynnechan
Pairing: past YunJae (Yunho x Jaejoong)
Genre: Angst, past Romance
Length: Oneshot; wrote in ipad so no wordcount
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Merely a product of my imagination, so don't hate me for this. Also, I don't own the pairing and the song used.
Summary: I just have to say it's over. I think you feel the same.
a/n: based on the song title itself, by kim jaejoong. PLEASE LISTEN TO IT WHILE READING THIS. i just had to write another yj breakup angst fic because of this song, don't hate me. :x my angst feels for this song is endless ugh /crawls back under my comforter
---
Woke up on my working desk. Again.
Everything's a mess. Even the sunlight.
It was another empty Tuesday morning, except my filthy work desk. Faint alcohol and burnt cigarette filled the whole working room. I stared hard on the song composition I wrote before I fell asleep. At the uppermost corner of the paper, there was a certain name written on it. Doodled with cursed words. Alcohol did the talking again. Fuck.
It was all about my ex-lover, Jung Yunho.
가두 불렀었어
It's the end of the road
이별했어두 다시 다 보내도
널 아꼈기 때문에 보낼 수 없었어
(I called for you even when you left
It's the end of the road
Even though we broke, even if I let you go all the way
Because I cared for you, I couldn't let you go)
(6 months ago)
Worn and exhausted, I sat in front of my house gate while chugging down the soju. I pulled out my handphone from my pocket. Grinning, I saw Yunho's number. I even giggled when I read 'My Lovely Yunho-yah' on the screen name. I was so drunk that I didn't imagine dialing it after half a year of break-up. Only tonight.
"*Hic* Hello? Oh, my lovely Yunho-yah~! Hihihi. Me? Doing good, doing great! I just realized I'm fine without you. Well, before I met you I WAS DOING GREAT ALREADY. I didn't complain when I saw her beside you on the studio this morning because I know we already break up. I even said my greetings though I wanted to rant her about the things you screw in your relationships. Because I fucking cared about you and--"
An unfamiliar voice of a man interrupted my crazy rants.
"I'm sorry sir but you got a wrong number."
My drowsiness was easily vanished. I quickly closed my handphone and stared at nothingness of the quiet neighborhood. I just embarrassed myself to a random person on this kind of hour. Whose fault is that?
"You changed your number that fast?! You jerk!" I sobbed even harder on the gate step.
Why am I turning into a pathetic slut whenever I get drunk? I should change this habit away.
I just have to say it's over
I think you feel the same
(5 months ago)
"I need space."
"No, Jung--"
"Or maybe we just have to end this."
"Yeah, you're right. Nothing is working anymore."
He couldn't look me in the eye. I knew it wasn't just an I-need-space thing.
대신 수위 센 해일 위
너를 태워 커진
허망한 love 잊겠고
(Instead, above a high water level in a tsunami
I will burn you
To forget our engorged vain love)
(5 months ago)
"Jae, have you heard the news? Yunho and Soojin are now together!" Junsu broke the news to me.
"So?"
"Is this the reason?"
"Junsu, five words. I don't give a fuck."
I lied. I threw whatever I'm holding to the nearest wall.
시작될 거여 나도 피곤해
새로이 길 찾아서 벗어 나갈게
아꼈을까 왜 이제 잡아뒀을까
(It will start, I too am tired
I will find a new path and get away from this
Why did I care for you, why did I cage you in)
I sang a bit of the lines, tasting the bitterness. It felt like yesterday.
왜 널 웃게 해주려 할땐
You just run away
내게 노력했다 하지 마
아무것도 안 미워해
왜 날 자랑해게 할땐
You just run away
(Why is it when I try to make you laugh
You just run away
Don't tell me I didn't try
I don't hate anything
Why is it when you made me love you
You just run away)
My mind drifted back to one year ago... where all things are still fine the way they are. But now, it's over. I have nowhere to return. No one will carry me gently on the bed whenever I end up sleeping on my working room. I have no one to argue petty little things. I don't have to become suspicious anymore. I learned how to let go of my regrets. I am once again, belong to no one.
Thanks for the lesson, Jung Yunho. I have learn how to run away without regrets.
Life goes on.
I'm fine.
#runaway