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I start to wonder about my life in general. I want to be a better programmer and be more consistent with my schoolwork. I just feel like there's so much happening in my life though that I can't focus that well. My day yesterday was complete and utter hell. This is what happened in order:
I write down all of the things I wanted to get accomplished in the day. I wanted to feel like I can accomplish my tasks, because I usually don't. XD Here's what it was:
- Fill out more applications for school loans
- Write a Disjoint Sets program in Java
- Make Graph Notes
- Scan programming practice problems for UCF team.
- Workout in the gym.
- Call the dentist about getting a cleaning/consulting appointment since i'm back on insurance again.
My internet goes out at the apartment, so I can't fill out the applications for the school loans because I kept getting disconnected every 5 seconds. It wasn't my laptop, there was a problem with the fucking internet because i'm plugged into the cable itself. So the loans didn't happen. I write my Disjoint Sets program for Java and 2 hours later..it's not working and i'm getting frustrated. It's 7:00 and I have to meet DJ at 8:00 because I promised him I would. So I go to the workout room and I ran on the treadmill for 30 minutes. Then it feels like i'm falling forward because i'm not used to working out. I got to talk to DJ and he'll say something and I DC right in the middle of it. So now I can't make the appointment and I try to get online and I disconnect/reconnect all fucking night. Now I can't even go graph notes because I use a combination of online resources/books to understand topics better. Then I decided to take a nap because I was stressed out. I go to sleep and I have the worst nightmares i've ever had since I was 6 years old. All of my fears about life and the worst possible situations started to come to life in my dream, and I got startled out of sleep and I was shivering. So I felt like I wasted a whole day and nothing but bad events just happening one after another. I really hope today goes better. I'm not giving up on it just yet!
I needed to do a slight vent, but I need to get back to focusing on my studies. Toodles!
I write down all of the things I wanted to get accomplished in the day. I wanted to feel like I can accomplish my tasks, because I usually don't. XD Here's what it was:
- Fill out more applications for school loans
- Write a Disjoint Sets program in Java
- Make Graph Notes
- Scan programming practice problems for UCF team.
- Workout in the gym.
- Call the dentist about getting a cleaning/consulting appointment since i'm back on insurance again.
My internet goes out at the apartment, so I can't fill out the applications for the school loans because I kept getting disconnected every 5 seconds. It wasn't my laptop, there was a problem with the fucking internet because i'm plugged into the cable itself. So the loans didn't happen. I write my Disjoint Sets program for Java and 2 hours later..it's not working and i'm getting frustrated. It's 7:00 and I have to meet DJ at 8:00 because I promised him I would. So I go to the workout room and I ran on the treadmill for 30 minutes. Then it feels like i'm falling forward because i'm not used to working out. I got to talk to DJ and he'll say something and I DC right in the middle of it. So now I can't make the appointment and I try to get online and I disconnect/reconnect all fucking night. Now I can't even go graph notes because I use a combination of online resources/books to understand topics better. Then I decided to take a nap because I was stressed out. I go to sleep and I have the worst nightmares i've ever had since I was 6 years old. All of my fears about life and the worst possible situations started to come to life in my dream, and I got startled out of sleep and I was shivering. So I felt like I wasted a whole day and nothing but bad events just happening one after another. I really hope today goes better. I'm not giving up on it just yet!
I needed to do a slight vent, but I need to get back to focusing on my studies. Toodles!