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Hmmm. This week has gone by really fast.
Monday, Mrs. Boxleitner (my English teacher) stopped by my parents' restaurant for dinner. She came with Kristen and Kevin cause they had the brilliant idea to invite her to go. It was pretty interesting. Again, I really should familiarize myself with our menu, but uh...I really don't care enough and as a result, it's always so awkward when people ask me what this and this is or what is good because I just don't know. ::shrugs:: I've also completely lost any ability to hold conversation sometime during the summer. As a result, I let everyone else talk and just listened. I seem to do this a lot.
Tuesday, went to Kristen's birthday party. Was, no offense to her, completely bored out of my mind. It's a complete embarrassment that can be fixed if I wanted it bad enough, but I do not know how to swim. Her party was at her cousin's cabin by a lake. So, main events pretty much was playing around in the water. Haha, guess who couldn't do -that-? That's right! Me! Last year, it was somehow more interesting because I had this nice girl to talk to, but uh...dude, totally and utterly bored. I don't know any of her church friends and all of them seemed more interested in the water rather than actual conversation. I spent a great deal of time sitting on a swing, staring blankly at the sparkling water and struggling to keep a smile on my face. I will never tell Kristen this, but if she wasn't one of my best friends, I would never have gone because I knew I was going to be bored. It was nice to see some of the people from school though. Haven't really seen anyone all summer. Kevin was nice enough to give me a ride home. I really don't mind him that much anymore. Interesting that since I remember back in ninth grade I hated his guts for being an annoying geek/nerd type of person. Perhaps he's improved. Or maybe I've just gotten worse. OR it could just be I know him better now. Who knooowwss~ Anyways, party was boring and I felt rather sick afterwards, but ahaha, to be honest, it's probably the most social activity I've gotten this whole summer. Jillian and friends don't really -count- because, well, I know them well enough and for the most part it involves anime/manga which is something I can fall back on if conversation dies.
Wednesday, piano lesson and so...frantic practicing. Then calligraphy lessons with Mum. I actually don't mind Chinese calligraphy that much, it can be pretty relaxing. Sadly, I don't like it enough to be motivated into practicing on my own and so~~ My writings always turn out to be fugly.
Thursday (today) was soooooo very bored that I resorted to actually doing my chores and chores that weren't my own. As a result, clothes/towels were all washed/dried/folded, dishes washed/dried and dinner was cooked. I -should- have been cleaning my room or practicing piano, but ehhhh, Mum appreciated that all of the above was done so...I guess it's all right. The problem with cleaning my room is that the worst problems happen to be the random stacks of books/manga/CDs everywhere. And the solution of that room means having more room to put stuff and well, more shelves for my books because I HATE putting my manga into boxes. ::cry:: I like SEEING them damn it! I like seeing them organized too, but ahaha, I suck at keeping track of my manga/books. I keep missing volumes of things because I'm so horrible, which is like my worst nightmare when organizing. 'OMG WHERE DID VOLUME 1 GO?!?! NNOOOOO ::SOBSCRIESWHINES::'
Mehhh. Kristen's going to be gone for the week to go visit family. That means my only mean of actual conversation is gone. I suppose I'll resort to talking to my brother, which, now that I think about it, isn't so bad because I can never offend him to a point where he will not speak to me ever again. He's family so he can't do that. AND I can always ignore him if I want. AND it doesn't matter if I randomly walk out of the room and come back to resume the conversation.
Hm. I wonder what happened to Jillian? I haven't heard anything from her in a week. I wonder if I can actually find the courage to pick up the phone and gasp! call her? ...Nah, I'm still phone-a-phobic. So no.
Lalala, July is almost over. I can feel senior project homework and community service requirement breathing down my neck and dripping their venom down my back. Lovely.
I want something good and interesting to happen soon before I lose all my motivation to do -anything-.
How do you find motivation in life? Why can't I remember how to make actual conversation? How can I stop being so self-centered?
Earlier, they were playing Gackt on the Japanese Pop station of Radio@AOL and I was insanely happy about it. Aahh. I'm such a dork. Oohh. Now they're playing Porno Graffitti. Nice.
::wanders off to go to sleep::
Monday, Mrs. Boxleitner (my English teacher) stopped by my parents' restaurant for dinner. She came with Kristen and Kevin cause they had the brilliant idea to invite her to go. It was pretty interesting. Again, I really should familiarize myself with our menu, but uh...I really don't care enough and as a result, it's always so awkward when people ask me what this and this is or what is good because I just don't know. ::shrugs:: I've also completely lost any ability to hold conversation sometime during the summer. As a result, I let everyone else talk and just listened. I seem to do this a lot.
Tuesday, went to Kristen's birthday party. Was, no offense to her, completely bored out of my mind. It's a complete embarrassment that can be fixed if I wanted it bad enough, but I do not know how to swim. Her party was at her cousin's cabin by a lake. So, main events pretty much was playing around in the water. Haha, guess who couldn't do -that-? That's right! Me! Last year, it was somehow more interesting because I had this nice girl to talk to, but uh...dude, totally and utterly bored. I don't know any of her church friends and all of them seemed more interested in the water rather than actual conversation. I spent a great deal of time sitting on a swing, staring blankly at the sparkling water and struggling to keep a smile on my face. I will never tell Kristen this, but if she wasn't one of my best friends, I would never have gone because I knew I was going to be bored. It was nice to see some of the people from school though. Haven't really seen anyone all summer. Kevin was nice enough to give me a ride home. I really don't mind him that much anymore. Interesting that since I remember back in ninth grade I hated his guts for being an annoying geek/nerd type of person. Perhaps he's improved. Or maybe I've just gotten worse. OR it could just be I know him better now. Who knooowwss~ Anyways, party was boring and I felt rather sick afterwards, but ahaha, to be honest, it's probably the most social activity I've gotten this whole summer. Jillian and friends don't really -count- because, well, I know them well enough and for the most part it involves anime/manga which is something I can fall back on if conversation dies.
Wednesday, piano lesson and so...frantic practicing. Then calligraphy lessons with Mum. I actually don't mind Chinese calligraphy that much, it can be pretty relaxing. Sadly, I don't like it enough to be motivated into practicing on my own and so~~ My writings always turn out to be fugly.
Thursday (today) was soooooo very bored that I resorted to actually doing my chores and chores that weren't my own. As a result, clothes/towels were all washed/dried/folded, dishes washed/dried and dinner was cooked. I -should- have been cleaning my room or practicing piano, but ehhhh, Mum appreciated that all of the above was done so...I guess it's all right. The problem with cleaning my room is that the worst problems happen to be the random stacks of books/manga/CDs everywhere. And the solution of that room means having more room to put stuff and well, more shelves for my books because I HATE putting my manga into boxes. ::cry:: I like SEEING them damn it! I like seeing them organized too, but ahaha, I suck at keeping track of my manga/books. I keep missing volumes of things because I'm so horrible, which is like my worst nightmare when organizing. 'OMG WHERE DID VOLUME 1 GO?!?! NNOOOOO ::SOBSCRIESWHINES::'
Mehhh. Kristen's going to be gone for the week to go visit family. That means my only mean of actual conversation is gone. I suppose I'll resort to talking to my brother, which, now that I think about it, isn't so bad because I can never offend him to a point where he will not speak to me ever again. He's family so he can't do that. AND I can always ignore him if I want. AND it doesn't matter if I randomly walk out of the room and come back to resume the conversation.
Hm. I wonder what happened to Jillian? I haven't heard anything from her in a week. I wonder if I can actually find the courage to pick up the phone and gasp! call her? ...Nah, I'm still phone-a-phobic. So no.
Lalala, July is almost over. I can feel senior project homework and community service requirement breathing down my neck and dripping their venom down my back. Lovely.
I want something good and interesting to happen soon before I lose all my motivation to do -anything-.
How do you find motivation in life? Why can't I remember how to make actual conversation? How can I stop being so self-centered?
Earlier, they were playing Gackt on the Japanese Pop station of Radio@AOL and I was insanely happy about it. Aahh. I'm such a dork. Oohh. Now they're playing Porno Graffitti. Nice.
::wanders off to go to sleep::