wilma... and then some
so my house in springs is ok, but everything arround it is destroyed.. lovely right... no more trees... no fence... no power.. no screen over the pool... i am a little scared to go home. although i wanna go to help with the clean up process. ne who. so i have been thinking alot lately.. about the past and stuff. like 2day, it was sooo cold outside and it just made me think of stuff that happend last year when it was cold. and i came to the conclusion that my live is completely different than it was only a year ago. now, most people say that college is suposed to change you and its for the better, but in my case, its for the worse. i have no life ne more. i dont do nething. i have no real friends right now. my best friend told me that we arent really "best friends" ne more, cuz we never hang out. all i do in my spare time is go and sit at adams house doing nothing. i love him to death, but i get so bored of sitting and doing nothing. i joined a sorority so that i could make friends and have a life. i still dont do nething. i dont hang out with ne one but my big and my twin (who are both awsome people) but other than that.. still.. nothing... i am sick of being bored all the time. sitting in this jail cell of a room.. doing absolutely nothing. i actually enjoy going to class cuz at least it gets me out of the apt. I decided that I want to go back to 11th grade. i really liked 11th grade. guard made things really stressfull, but at least I was active, liked the show, and had friends outside of school. it used to be me, jackie, and the boys. we would go out all the time, and have so much fun. i miss those days. i miss having friends. everyone said that orlando was gunna b so much fun.. its not. the only thing people do arround here is drink. and not just to relax, but the get trashed and puke everywhere, and i am sorry, but thats not my idea of a good time. meanwhile, its 2am and i have a paper due tomorro that isnt even half way done. my mind is racing with all these other things so its really hard to concentrate on writing a movie review. i am infatuated with a person i dont even know... just cuz she has something to do with someone elses past. its becoming an obsession, event tho i shouldnt care at all. i am jealous of my "best friend's" new friends because they are her new best friends. its not really fare. i dont even know how all this happend. i am left with the one person i love more than nething in the world... but for some reason, its not enough. i cant spend the rest of my life being soely dependant on just one person. thats not healthy. the great part about this whole thing is that no one is gunna read this. i havent told neone i have this thing. so if u happen to have found it, sorry for waisting ur time with my pointless babble.