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I GOT INTO THE PHOTOGRAPHY PROGRAM!!!
all of my hard work has finally paid off! i feel so accomplished. i worked so hard and was in the photo lab for hours this entire year working on my portfolio and i still cant believe that i got accepted!!! seems like my passion is paying off. i feel that much closer to my dream...to that degree. now i just have to take the rest of the required classes and then work on a senior exhibition but i dont have to worry about that for awhile. :) eeep. i was super nervous because i heard a lot of people don't get in. i feel so blessed and lucky. the major that was my first choice, and my first try i actually succeded. i feel much better about the rest of my college career now. :D
so much shitty stuff has been happening lately and i was hoping it would not get any worse. a car crash that shook me both physically and mentally, a horrible breakup with the only man i ever truly loved, my grandmother dying on my 20th birthday. seriously, if i didn't get into upper division who knows if i would even be here right now. im just thinking that things are going to start turning around. im thinking alot more optimistically and try not to get stressed/upset over little things that just don't matter. i've been exposed to the idea of death alot lately and been thinking about what is really important in our lives. i look at my grandma's death optimistically too. she went peacefully and its what she wanted. she prayed to god to take her while she's still healthy. i still dont know what i believe about the afterlife. i used to feel very strongly that there is no afterlife. i truly just want to be happy and experience lots of things hopefully with lots of good people.