She's home!
Alayna Danielle came home on Thursday the 20th. She gained a good amount of weight from Tuesday-Thursday, and since she was eating more and gaining, they allowed her to go home. (Although she was not back to her birth weight, but she was 8lbs 5ozs.) I'm so glad that she's home. At one point, I was convinced that she would never be coming home, and I hate the NICU. It brings back flashbacks to another situation I was in and I just hate it. I do have to say, that this NICU is the best. Even though I hated them at certain times because they seemed unfair, they were very good at being sure that my daughter was in the best hands, and they made sure that they did everything in their power to help her. I still don't like that neonatologist she had, though. I'm sorry, but she really had no compassion for my feelimgs. When I was there depressed & crying, she was very rude. The nurses even agreed. She was like that to a lot of the parents there in the NICU and I didn't appreciate it. But this one nurse she had was amazing. I owe everything to her. She gave me strength, and she helped Alayna more than anyone ever could. She knew of our financial situation and everything else, and she gave us cases of premade formula. :) She was such an amazing woman and I do want to thank her. Unfortunately, she wasn't there when Alayna was released, but...I still have to thank her!
She's now almost 9 pounds. Friday I took her to the pediatrician and she said Alayna is 8lbs 11.9ozs. By now she must be up some!! I'm just worried about her...paranoid is more like it, but that's definitely justified. She's doing excellent, though. She eats like a little piggy and is doing great with her feedings. She only spit up a few times and I am wondering if it's her formula. I know sometimes it was all me because I decided to try different bottles and stuff, but a lot of the time when it was with the bottles the hospital gave us, I wonder if it's the formula.
I've been feeling terrible. Sleep deprived mostly. Alayna sleeps during the night, but I'm always up checking on her to be sure she's okay, and those two weeks she was in the NICU I hardly slept because I was worried about her and constantly depressed. I really think it's time for me to get some sleep. I mean Alayna sleeps during the night perfectly and only wakes up for her feedings. I could easily get sleep and I should, but...just paranoia.