I am.
I am in the process of accomplishing so many things. Or least planning on accomplishing so many things. I'm moving in with Matthew this coming May, this is something we both have been waiting for so fucking long.
Matt isn't over his ex. He doesn't love her, but there are still some feelings. I don't know how I feel about this. I know I'm upset I just don't feel anything yet. It doesn't change anything I feel about him, it doesn't make me feel insecure about our realationship. I don't feel afraid. I don't feel like he loves me less. Hell, I even brought it up because he had been lying to himself about it and I know he needed to address it so he could deal with it and stop ignoring and hoping it'd "just go away" and I know that kind of thinking isn't good for anyone- that last thing he needed was something else to be in denial about.
I've been logical about this; I know exactly what I think and I know what I don't feel.
What exactly should I be feeling right now?
Matt isn't over his ex. He doesn't love her, but there are still some feelings. I don't know how I feel about this. I know I'm upset I just don't feel anything yet. It doesn't change anything I feel about him, it doesn't make me feel insecure about our realationship. I don't feel afraid. I don't feel like he loves me less. Hell, I even brought it up because he had been lying to himself about it and I know he needed to address it so he could deal with it and stop ignoring and hoping it'd "just go away" and I know that kind of thinking isn't good for anyone- that last thing he needed was something else to be in denial about.
I've been logical about this; I know exactly what I think and I know what I don't feel.
What exactly should I be feeling right now?