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I'm feeling unsettled with this new job. I love it, but it's a change.
I get so entrenched in a routine, and have been in basically the same routine for the past five years: full-time job on campus, two or three classes a session, year-round. Being busy makes me stay organized. Creating a routine was always my way of controlling chaos in my life, starting with when I was a kid. Whenever my routine shifts it takes a while for me to feel settled. I actually get bits of anxiety surfacing throughout the day. It's so weird. I've worked through this with a therapist and understand it, and I guess understanding it helps me deal with it. But it doesn't take it away.
I'll be graduating with my bachelor's in a couple months. I am glad to be registering for summer classes already (to start the graduate degree - TESL) because I know my routine will continue for another couple years. Whew!
I'm really looking forward to when Sal and I will ride off on our bikes and travel the world for a few years, but THAT will be an adjustment of grand proportion. Luckily, I already know that traveling can be a routine in itself. When I walked across the Camino de Santiago two years ago in Spain that was one thing I really loved about it. Every day we got up, drank coffee, walked, ate a snack, walked, had another coffee, walked, more snacks, walked, got to the next stop, got a bed, washed clothes, shopped for snacks, chatted with other travelers, slept. Woke, repeated. Cycle touring will be much the same.
Next week my routine will be interrupted again for Spring Break: we're off to Hawaii!! It's a last-minute trip we planned because this is my last spring break as an undergrad and I've never traveled for one. So here we go! We leave Friday afternoon and return the Tuesday after spring break. This will be our first time in Hawaii as well. I can't wait to warm up and bare my toes!
Then I'll be back here, settling into my routine again, waiting for my insides to settle down as well.
I get so entrenched in a routine, and have been in basically the same routine for the past five years: full-time job on campus, two or three classes a session, year-round. Being busy makes me stay organized. Creating a routine was always my way of controlling chaos in my life, starting with when I was a kid. Whenever my routine shifts it takes a while for me to feel settled. I actually get bits of anxiety surfacing throughout the day. It's so weird. I've worked through this with a therapist and understand it, and I guess understanding it helps me deal with it. But it doesn't take it away.
I'll be graduating with my bachelor's in a couple months. I am glad to be registering for summer classes already (to start the graduate degree - TESL) because I know my routine will continue for another couple years. Whew!
I'm really looking forward to when Sal and I will ride off on our bikes and travel the world for a few years, but THAT will be an adjustment of grand proportion. Luckily, I already know that traveling can be a routine in itself. When I walked across the Camino de Santiago two years ago in Spain that was one thing I really loved about it. Every day we got up, drank coffee, walked, ate a snack, walked, had another coffee, walked, more snacks, walked, got to the next stop, got a bed, washed clothes, shopped for snacks, chatted with other travelers, slept. Woke, repeated. Cycle touring will be much the same.
Next week my routine will be interrupted again for Spring Break: we're off to Hawaii!! It's a last-minute trip we planned because this is my last spring break as an undergrad and I've never traveled for one. So here we go! We leave Friday afternoon and return the Tuesday after spring break. This will be our first time in Hawaii as well. I can't wait to warm up and bare my toes!
Then I'll be back here, settling into my routine again, waiting for my insides to settle down as well.