Restarting
A lot of time has passed since I wrote something in my web diary. I would like to continue mostly because I want to make for myself exercise in English. I want to learn to formulate my thoughts and to express myself in this language. I feel shy to call English this language in which I'm writing now, I'm not English native speaker, more precisely it's Globish, it's international Enlgish, not the British or the American one.
However, we see the area in which they use it grow fast. Many blogs in web are written like this, the authors are not English native speakers, but they use this language to communicate with more people in the world. We all are living the process of globalization, the world is slowly becoming one country and the language of this country will be international English. All the web system is based on English. You can make your system to use Cyrillic or Chinese, but its foundation was built on English, only in the future we'll understand the real importance of it.
I like English, it is a very compact language that helps to express your thought quickly and expressively.
What should I write about? My main concern is what for I'm living. I have never thought seriously about it, like the most part of our contemporaries. We simply live, do enjoy some moments of our existence and suffer more of them, we know all theoretically that we will die one day, like all our ancestors did, and we are just continuing our existence, day after day, and night after night. Until maybe one day something breaks the routine and makes you stop and ask yourself WHAT FOR?
Something did happen in my life, my last baby died before being born, I passed myself in coma 5 days, during which no one could predict if I will survive or not. I've survived and the everyday routine started again but the question was posed to me WHAT FOR DO WE LIVE.
If there is not any purpose in our lives, our existence is boring. To wake up every day and to see that the sun is up again, and we have to start another time to do things that we were doing yesterday and the day before yesterday, to continue repeatedly. And I feel myself so terribly anchored here in Greece, I'm afraid that I will stay in this place all the rest of my life. I feel bad landed and unable to fly once more. The doctors do call it simply depression. For me, it is an existential issue.
I do restart my blog. I plan and hope to put inside things that will help myself and somebody who's going to follow my writings in two things:
1. To get again interest and aim in the life
and
2. To learn to leave in Athens, Greece without getting depressed.
I think I'm not the single person in the same situation. In my blog, I'll try to help not only myself but everybody who is feeling the same.
I DON'T LIKE MY LIFE IN GREECE, AND I DON'T SEE SENSE IN MY LIFE GENERALLY.
My purpose is to help everybody who's suffering the same.
I try to start from today.