thinking about days past
Today... and recent days actually... I've come to this wall where I see things slighty more for what they've been than what I usually do. It's kinda bugging me actually
I find that lately I'm getting out of my own skin and I feel like I'm trying to be someone else, knowing there are parts of me hiding away. Catching trends that otherwise wouldn't interest me much. I don't fully know how to explain this but I feel like this "mellowing out" isn't me at all but some form of repression, some attempt at not standing out in a crowd but somehow being lost in it.
I suppose it probably wouldn't take too much to find that part of me again but I find that I'm less comfortable around it and it makes me a little sad.
I find that lately I'm getting out of my own skin and I feel like I'm trying to be someone else, knowing there are parts of me hiding away. Catching trends that otherwise wouldn't interest me much. I don't fully know how to explain this but I feel like this "mellowing out" isn't me at all but some form of repression, some attempt at not standing out in a crowd but somehow being lost in it.
I suppose it probably wouldn't take too much to find that part of me again but I find that I'm less comfortable around it and it makes me a little sad.