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I associate Ontario -- with pain. With anger. With hurt.
When it was time for my birthday, like usual, the majority of the people in my life found other things, that were more important, than attending it. Yes, I had a good birthday (I was hammered) and I had good friends, and the people that matter most, for the most part, at my side. I am thankful for that, I am happy about that. But what bothered me, was yet again, how so many people who need me, and so many people that I'm always there for, were not there for me, they did not put me ahead of anything. They would rather go to another bar cause it was 'more fun' than come to my birthday at a bar of my choice. When their birthdays were important, or whenever they needed anything, I was that person that was there. I ask for one day a year, and the people I love, and care about, can't give that to me. (I understand work, I understand being out of town, I understand things like that and some others, don't think I'm unreasonable)
If you can't be selfish on your birthday, and pick out a venue you like, then when you can be?
Well I guess that brings me to my next point: My Going Away Party.
You see, I'm moving next week to another province, across Canada.
It's not like I'll be going on vacation for a week, or a month, or even 6 months, I'm moving. I don't know when I'll be home, I don't know if I'll even want to move back home.
I'm having a going away party, and yet again, those people that I have done things for, and put before me on numerous occassions, are finding the silliest and stupidest of reasons to put things before me. It's not like a birthday, it's not like you'll see me next week like you will them (making me a hypocrite, because I mean, I want my birthday to be special too just like they would) but I mean, there are some people I just expect to be there, I would exepct them to miss me, and I guess I don't feel like they would, and I guess I'm upset because, why is it all the time, that people and things come before me?
I hope that people across the world aren't like this. That maybe it's a Durham/Clarington region sort of thing.
When it was time for my birthday, like usual, the majority of the people in my life found other things, that were more important, than attending it. Yes, I had a good birthday (I was hammered) and I had good friends, and the people that matter most, for the most part, at my side. I am thankful for that, I am happy about that. But what bothered me, was yet again, how so many people who need me, and so many people that I'm always there for, were not there for me, they did not put me ahead of anything. They would rather go to another bar cause it was 'more fun' than come to my birthday at a bar of my choice. When their birthdays were important, or whenever they needed anything, I was that person that was there. I ask for one day a year, and the people I love, and care about, can't give that to me. (I understand work, I understand being out of town, I understand things like that and some others, don't think I'm unreasonable)
If you can't be selfish on your birthday, and pick out a venue you like, then when you can be?
Well I guess that brings me to my next point: My Going Away Party.
You see, I'm moving next week to another province, across Canada.
It's not like I'll be going on vacation for a week, or a month, or even 6 months, I'm moving. I don't know when I'll be home, I don't know if I'll even want to move back home.
I'm having a going away party, and yet again, those people that I have done things for, and put before me on numerous occassions, are finding the silliest and stupidest of reasons to put things before me. It's not like a birthday, it's not like you'll see me next week like you will them (making me a hypocrite, because I mean, I want my birthday to be special too just like they would) but I mean, there are some people I just expect to be there, I would exepct them to miss me, and I guess I don't feel like they would, and I guess I'm upset because, why is it all the time, that people and things come before me?
I hope that people across the world aren't like this. That maybe it's a Durham/Clarington region sort of thing.