Weather.
I haven't yet looked at the forecast, but my internal meteorologist says it's going to rain today. Either that or there's a storm in the vicinity; my emotions seem fairly close to the surface, and I'm having trouble keeping myself on an even keel. I think a long walk is in order today.
Blessings to all...
2:22 p.m.
Just to keep this within one entry, I'll add my update here. It has rained and will likely continue to rain, and I think I've got a bit of cabin fever. Just the contrast between the festival and the house is enough to give me a bit of a headache -- the one was outside, expansive, and full of energy, while the other is pretty quiet and routine without others of like mind to talk with in person. I think I'm coming to understand now why I spend the time on the internet that I do; it's to keep those lines of communication open with others who share or at least understand my world view.
I'm really looking forward to finding a job and being able to be in a place where I can at least have something I feel to be my own. I could list why here, but it's not worth it; that'd just mire me down and I don't need that. Let's just say that when I do move to my own place, I'll be a lot more comfortable because I will be the one designing the decor.
I do make it a point to remember how lucky I am. I really am, very much so. I have a place to stay, and it's comfortable and well-put together. Mom is wonderful with decorating, and my room is beautifully done. Dad is good at construction, and the kitchen has a new layout thanks to him. I cannot fail to recognize these things. Yet I recognize, too, that I have become accustomed to being on my own, and I feel a constant conflict because I'm back in my parents' house once again with no job.
I guess I'm just not feeling very marketable right now. :(
Blessings to all...
2:22 p.m.
Just to keep this within one entry, I'll add my update here. It has rained and will likely continue to rain, and I think I've got a bit of cabin fever. Just the contrast between the festival and the house is enough to give me a bit of a headache -- the one was outside, expansive, and full of energy, while the other is pretty quiet and routine without others of like mind to talk with in person. I think I'm coming to understand now why I spend the time on the internet that I do; it's to keep those lines of communication open with others who share or at least understand my world view.
I'm really looking forward to finding a job and being able to be in a place where I can at least have something I feel to be my own. I could list why here, but it's not worth it; that'd just mire me down and I don't need that. Let's just say that when I do move to my own place, I'll be a lot more comfortable because I will be the one designing the decor.
I do make it a point to remember how lucky I am. I really am, very much so. I have a place to stay, and it's comfortable and well-put together. Mom is wonderful with decorating, and my room is beautifully done. Dad is good at construction, and the kitchen has a new layout thanks to him. I cannot fail to recognize these things. Yet I recognize, too, that I have become accustomed to being on my own, and I feel a constant conflict because I'm back in my parents' house once again with no job.
I guess I'm just not feeling very marketable right now. :(