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Filling in the Blanks...
It seems like every time I hope and pray that something good will come along, immediately an opportunity arises, but nothing has yet to work out. A week, two weeks, a few days, one drunken night... after that it dissipates.
I've had my heartbroken repeatedly, especially lately, but after a few hours of brooding it just goes into the time line with the rest of the garbage in my life.
I have seen things in retrospect and I'm pretty sure a month from now something that seems much worse will be going on and this will all seem tame.
I haven't spoken with H in several days. Despite the fact that J is leaving him, he is cutting everyone (ie: Me) out of his life so hopefully she'll see that he's... what, exactly? Pitiful? Pathetic? I should have known better than to have gotten involved with that situation... just like many others as of late.
It's fucking 80 degrees outside. I don't know how I'm going to survive summer. The Kid wants to go swimming and do all these outdoorsy things but after ten minutes in the sun I turn into a leper.
I'm done venting for now.
It seems like every time I hope and pray that something good will come along, immediately an opportunity arises, but nothing has yet to work out. A week, two weeks, a few days, one drunken night... after that it dissipates.
I've had my heartbroken repeatedly, especially lately, but after a few hours of brooding it just goes into the time line with the rest of the garbage in my life.
I have seen things in retrospect and I'm pretty sure a month from now something that seems much worse will be going on and this will all seem tame.
I haven't spoken with H in several days. Despite the fact that J is leaving him, he is cutting everyone (ie: Me) out of his life so hopefully she'll see that he's... what, exactly? Pitiful? Pathetic? I should have known better than to have gotten involved with that situation... just like many others as of late.
It's fucking 80 degrees outside. I don't know how I'm going to survive summer. The Kid wants to go swimming and do all these outdoorsy things but after ten minutes in the sun I turn into a leper.
I'm done venting for now.