We're Here For A Good Reason...
"i think i just accidentally took a shower"... thats as good a place to start a fairytale as any, isnt it? i dont tend to start from the beginning or the end. i dont like the middle unless something really dramatic happens, and i really dont think starting a story with a question is a good way to do things, but i never follow these rules. the questions are used to draw in the reader, and the content is used to keep their attention. i dont think of all of you as ADD-riddled six-year-olds, and if you do fit that category, im surprised youre reading any of this. i think you should visit a slightly less offensive and thought-assassinating web journal.
you think back on things, on short little drives to let people off at their cars before you decide to end the night, and you realize how you would have done it differently. not the present, but some of the past. it shouldnt bother anyone to mention things (like drinking too much tequila), but i know it does. we look back on things that have happened and we take a stance, even if it conflicts with others-... but it some cases the mind is too weak to make its own decision, so the mind is left to follow examples set by others who have also traversed. the mind is not a terrible thing to waste. i used to love getting wasted. the mind is just something that some do not use beyond the most basic functions. sure, it comes with a calculator, a save button and a printer, but you need to go beyond these things to experience what im talking about.
if all that you contain is information from text books that mean something in school but have little social signifigance, youre exactly that-... a text book. i dont mind talking about the current state of terrorism and how it is effecting people all over the country, but when your opinions are limited to the facts youre force fed through a televised-straw, theyre not YOUR opinions. a parrot is capable of the same lame parlour-tricks, and at least they get a cookie. do you ever get a cookie for quoting c-span?
you give and give, but you cant expect retribution in the most immediate form. helping some old person get something off the top shelf and carry it to their car is all well and good, but theres no rule that states that youll get your karmic-reward right after, or that youll get it at all. you can sit and watch as some old lady with leg braces and a cane struggles to open a door, knowing you wont recieve a tip or even a pat on the back-... or you can help her, even if it makes you a little late. you can provide customer-service for the world, or you can send them to another store-... either way, it doesnt mean youre going to get anywhere, and you may end up worse off than before... but you helped someone in need out, and thats something that isnt done as often as i feel it should be-... though i guess im kinda saying something everyone claims to know and in some cases agree with. this is why i dont understand why i need to hold the door for this lady out in the rain as ive watched seven other people walk out. shes waited, and i can spend a few minutes of my day. its not a job, its not a favor, its just a choice i make, and it makes me happy.
bad things happen to good people-... and they happen to bad people, so why do people use this cliche so loosely? maybe theyre the bad people this cliche refers to, and they just want to seem like karma made a mistake, which it often does. they hide the fact that they didnt flush the urinal a few weeks ago in village inn, or that they cut someone off on the 101. they complain about something bad happening to them, but this little old lady who is supporting herself on metal beams is waiting outside for someone like this guy to hold the door-... hes too busy telling me how much he hates when people dont help out at the time. its fine, cause im doing the same right now. its past midnight now, and i could be helping people out, but there are restrictions on my abilties, and that bothers me. id like to help more people, but i need to benefit from it as well-... not immediately, but a karma-paycheck would be nice. i dont think there would even be taxes, and if karma fucked up and payed you a few hundred extra or a few hundred less that what youd "earned", it would be okay, cause you would know it went towards someone else-... hopefully someone who needed it. that old lady gets the hip replacements she needs and now she can hold the door for you as you help some old man carry his suitcase to the car.
those car rides, even when were all quiet and the music covers all our laughing and awkward silences, makes me happy. those times when i can help the people i love and even "take care" of them makes waking up and working towards certain points in the day worthwhile. dealing with people id rather not deal with and talking to people who dismiss me when i try to offer help doesnt sway me from asking the next person if i can assist them in at least holding the door open. the UPS guy needs a helping hand even when hes on the job, and i know id appreciate it just as much. i dont mean that you need to drop everything youre doing to help some little kid open a door, but if i see a lost child crying, i help them to a safe-place in which someone who i can trust will help them or ill help myself. if im holding eight cartons of eggs and someone needs help, ill finish what im doing and then go look to see if theyre still in the same situation, but this is when other people come in, because if i come back and someone else is helping said person, id only assume they got a karma-bonus.
i leave pretty good tips when someone at a restaurant is nice and even hangs out, and i still (usually) leave a tip if theyre not the best but i know they tried. when a person does everything in their power to make your day suck, you should know that its probably just that person thats having a bad day, and theyre trying to put it off themselves by placing it on you. dont get pissed (we all do, i know, but try not to) and just say hello and ask them if theres anything the matter or how their day is going-... most of the time it will be something with a simple fix, but something people just need a break, and life doesnt always afford us these opportunities. its too bad, cause ive had days myself where i could have stayed in my room and sulked, but im happy i was forced to get up and get out-... i just get depressed when thats what im surrounded with. depression is as contagious as a yawn-... and its why i try to distance myself from it without fulling cutting myself off from any given person.
ehh-... this is long, so im gonna stop. night.