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Vacation is really begining to suck. No one is around to hangout with and its gonna rain all week. Days like this are what make me think about yesterdays entry. Like i said im gonna try to take that advice but ive been trying that for 9 months now and it hasnt worked. Im glad that someone gave me some advice because it seems like i waste my time even writing in this shizzle. Im sooo bored right now. I wanna hangout with keri and jackie but they arent around or they are doing something. I wanna hangout with joey and such but hes working and stuff. I have to go look for a tux this week but im way too lazy to even think about it. I wanna go to the prom but i dont all at the same time. Id rather be going with someone that i would be going out with. Dont get me wrong i think its cool that kaitlyn agreed to go with me but id rather be dating the person i go with. Hopefully my next and last dance i go to will be like that. Because if my senior prom is gonna be all gay and shit im not gonna wanna go. I really dont like dances but i told myself that im gonna go to the 2 proms and thats it. I cant believe that im gonna be graduating next year. Im gonna be leaving all of my friends behind and that sucks. But i think im gonna take a few months off from school when i graduate. Then start up at new england tech in like 2006. Hopefull ill actually be able to go to that school. Im way too dumb i think to even be accepted. Im in a 10th grade math. Ive already failed 2 state testing tests for math because i havent learned half the bullshit thats on it because my math teacher(s) are all fags and it just sucks. I havent taken my psat yet. And i think the SAT's are next year. I Havent been looking for colleges because i know which one i wanna go to but what happens when i dont get accepted from there? Where the hell do i go after that. You cant go to ccri to work on cars. New England Tech and MTTI are the only colleges in the state that teach what i wanna do. After that its boston or manchester NH. And i definatley dont wanna leave the state because i have no where to stay if i do that. But whatever. Im just going to live with the fact that im a loser. I should just drop out like i wanted to do so i dont have to worry about this shit and work at mcdonalds for the rest of my life. oh no i cant do that because they wont hire me for a thrid fucking time.