Hobbies and porn
My former psychologist, while not particularly good (I don't need someone who just constantly listens), did suggest that I needed to pick up a hobby, something I could do on my own. We talked about possibilities, and we discussed geocaching, but I never really tried it. A few friends of mine also said I needed some hobbies, and while I understood the words, I couldn't just randomly pick something to do for fun.
I realized today that for 10 years, I did have a hobby I did regularly and enjoyed - cybersex. I used to spend a few hours a day on Tapestries, meeting new folks who seemed into something interesting, or old friends. I really loved making something of a collaborative story that I not only found hot, but I shared that hotness with someone else. But, sadly, everything changes, and Tapestries has kind of sucked for the past few years. It seems like furries just got over trying to learn how to MUCK and just roleplay on messengers, FA notes, or other decentralized chats now. That's what I'd been missing in my life; something I did by myself for a few hours that I just found to be fun. The thing is, it's not coming back, it seems.
So, in a way, I have to move on from that, too. I'm considering spending an hour a night writing porn - at first for myself, and then maybe for mass consumption. I also realize that, subconsciously, I knew that maybe Civ V would also fill the "just doing it for fun" need that I have. I can't always be super productive, and I can't always hang out with my friends.
I realized today that for 10 years, I did have a hobby I did regularly and enjoyed - cybersex. I used to spend a few hours a day on Tapestries, meeting new folks who seemed into something interesting, or old friends. I really loved making something of a collaborative story that I not only found hot, but I shared that hotness with someone else. But, sadly, everything changes, and Tapestries has kind of sucked for the past few years. It seems like furries just got over trying to learn how to MUCK and just roleplay on messengers, FA notes, or other decentralized chats now. That's what I'd been missing in my life; something I did by myself for a few hours that I just found to be fun. The thing is, it's not coming back, it seems.
So, in a way, I have to move on from that, too. I'm considering spending an hour a night writing porn - at first for myself, and then maybe for mass consumption. I also realize that, subconsciously, I knew that maybe Civ V would also fill the "just doing it for fun" need that I have. I can't always be super productive, and I can't always hang out with my friends.