selfish..

[aromeoh]

words cannot describe how hurt i feel. i cant take it anymore. the past 6 months have been hell and ive stuck by with her basically spitting in my face at every turn. and now im the one being unreasonable. fuck me she says. shes not going to put up with any shit? what shit? How about every person she is even remotely friends with thinking that shes

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[puchinokitty]

I take it very badly when someone "tests" me. I told you what was going on. What the hell kind of a test were you trying anyways...there isn't much that I can do and I have run out of things to say and tell you when you are upset about my mother being a dumbass and controlling. I just sound like a broken record. It feels like you want me to just sit here in my misery while I wait around 8 months. I am trying to spend time with my friends that I have here...which when I hang out with you, I completely ignore them for the most part because I am ALWAYS with you and because of how my friends feel, it isn't an option to hang out with you AND them. I am sorry that you are going through hard times. I wish there was something I could do, but there isn't while I am not allowed to see or talk to you. Me talking to you at any point is risking the rest of my life, so if I were you, I wouldn't be so pissy about me not saying something to you when you leave me a message. And, I did feel like you left because of what you said last night (I'll be seeing you). You and I both know what that means and you said it to get me going...in fact, I think you said a lot of things last night to get me going. Whenever you are in a bad mood, you and I just get in a fight. THAT is what I can't take anymore. I don't want to fight with you, especially when I have done nothing wrong. I explained that the end of the week and the weekend were kinda crazy. I know that most of the time, you are sitting there with nothing to do when you are not working, but I still have 7 classes to do stuff for...I am far behind and I have people here requiring my attention. I basically tore my heart out and layed it on the table the other day. I guess that was a bad idea.

[puchinokitty]

And, to top it all off, I am being ignored by my family, so, yes, I do feel left and alone right now...

[aromeoh]

first of all when you hang out with me, your hanging out with me. if you didnt want to be around me i guess you should have said so. i cant control how you act towards your friends and i cant control how they feel about you hangin out with me. btw so how do you explain the post on myspace? that was before i even talked to you last night. the "test" was when you said that youve been too busy to even check your email and you havent even been online i asked you if you had talked to dave since he had gotten back into town and you said ya that you made sure he got back ok and everything and saw how he was doing. im sorry but the post on myspace was at 8:40 p and you had to talk to him to get that impression. im not stupid and i dont appreciate you treating me like i am. and its not that im "going through hard times" either. that has NOTHING to do with this and it kinda makes me mad that you think im that shallow. and i have said nothing to "get you going" either. and you feeling left and alone right now? maybe you shouldnt treat one of the only people in your life that loves you unconditionally like shit. look bottom line is-i have done nothing wrong and nothing to deserve this and youve been acting like a bitch to me practically nonstop and ive just dealt with it because i felt like you were dealing with a lot. the constant snapping at me and everything..ya. and you basically lieing about dave sent me over. Im not going to argue with you. im done. the end.

[puchinokitty]

I don't know what to say to you. I had talked to him online. I had left him a message on sunday evening just before I had talked to you. I really had not checked my email from Wed evening through sunday evening. Are you expecting me to tell you every little thing that I say to people? We aren't in a relationship...you know that I can't handle one right now. You know that I am very confused and unstable right now. I am trying to deal with a lot. I know you are too. You have a tendency to start fights with me when you are upset if I do anything that slightly pisses you off. I am not quite sure how I have been a bitch and treated you like shit. I just didn't really have any time to talk last week. When we would talk before, it was on the phone and I was usually walking somewhere or whatever...If I have done anything wrong, it is simply not responding to your IMs, which I am technically not supposed to anyways.