Ugh. So, I'm sorry, but this post isn't really gonna be too happy. The past month, my life has been fucking FILLED to the rim with stress
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Oh dear, I'm so sorry you have to go through all that. And everything sounds just... I don't want to say it, but I can't think of a more positive negative word (lol)... horrible.
But from that whole entry, I got the sense that you know what you have to do and what you can do to help. I got the sense that you're smart and not helpless and proactive about everything (just like talking to your mom about Michelle and having her speak to your guidance counsellor! That's awesome and a really hard/scary thing to do).
As for your father, nobody's perfect. And I can only imagine how upsetting and disappointing his actions are and the fact that he doesn't see how it affects the whole family. Like I said before, I think you know that as long as you do your part, that's enough.
I think if you're feeling stress, that you should just step back. Not worry about your parents for a while or distant yourself from their problems. Because their relationship, in all reality, is their business. OF COURSE it affects you as their child. But as their child, you can't do much to fix anything and if it's stressing you out trying to fix things, then it's best to step back and allow yourself to "hide" away from their problems. Just for your own sanity.
Anyway, I hope something good comes your way to cheer you up. :) *hugs*
Aww, thanks! Unfortunately, the guidance counselor didn't work out and was taking too long, so I had to give her a note *shivers*. I was so tense in my last period of school 'cause I had to run out of their like Bambi did o_o. Now she's been not talking to me.. I'm happy, but at the same time I hope she wasn't too hurt by it.
I need to stop feeling guilty >_<.
And yeah, 'bout the whole divorce thingy.. I'm trying to get over it. I just wish he wasn't so god damned negative and naive. I mean, I really do love him, but I just.. ugh, no need to restate it.
Well, life is never as easy as pie. Thank god it's getting better though! (although I wish mom and my brother would stop fighting.. lol XD). Plus, I've been spending more time with friends in and outside of school (does xbox count a little? XD), so I've been getting better with that too.
It's great to hear you in such a positive state of mind!!! I'm seriously impressed! You're so optimistic and so... I can't think of a word for this: so intune with different perspectives and so resourceful that you're not sulking in a corner about your sorrows. I love how proactive you are!!!!!
I don't have to worry about you, is what I'm saying. XD
I'm great! Thanks for asking! Oh, I want to ask you, did you want to join a few of us from the ianthony comm on Skype? You can create another account if it's your identity you're worried about. There's about 11 of us all chatting with each other and it's really fun! My Skype is the same as my lj username if you choose to join us! :D
Aww, thanks! I am pretty happy now, although the person I like may not be who I thought he was. He's really sweet, funny, kind, and strange (but I love him for that, we all have our quirks XD).. But now I've found out he likes to talk crap about people -_-. Ugh asbhasdhbdsabhas
I can accept him for that, but I feel like he may actually be a douchebag and I'm just too in love with his personality to realize so :/. But I guess I'll try to accept that bad fact of his and hope he's not also a douche. Life always has to have drama, doesn't it?
I'd love to join skype, but my mom is completely against that stuff. She hates oovoo and things with chatting that show your face (which I can completely understand, skype can be pretty unsafe if you use the camera thingy with people you don't know.. and you could also be a perv on there too XD.). I don't think it'd go over too well if she found out I was skyping with some slash fans also, because even though she accepts me for liking slash, she probably would think we're watching porn or something X'D.
Anyways, thanks, and have a great day! Feel free to email me your problems too if you want to :).
But from that whole entry, I got the sense that you know what you have to do and what you can do to help. I got the sense that you're smart and not helpless and proactive about everything (just like talking to your mom about Michelle and having her speak to your guidance counsellor! That's awesome and a really hard/scary thing to do).
As for your father, nobody's perfect. And I can only imagine how upsetting and disappointing his actions are and the fact that he doesn't see how it affects the whole family. Like I said before, I think you know that as long as you do your part, that's enough.
I think if you're feeling stress, that you should just step back. Not worry about your parents for a while or distant yourself from their problems. Because their relationship, in all reality, is their business. OF COURSE it affects you as their child. But as their child, you can't do much to fix anything and if it's stressing you out trying to fix things, then it's best to step back and allow yourself to "hide" away from their problems. Just for your own sanity.
Anyway, I hope something good comes your way to cheer you up. :) *hugs*
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Now she's been not talking to me.. I'm happy, but at the same time I hope she wasn't too hurt by it.
I need to stop feeling guilty >_<.
And yeah, 'bout the whole divorce thingy.. I'm trying to get over it. I just wish he wasn't so god damned negative and naive. I mean, I really do love him, but I just.. ugh, no need to restate it.
Well, life is never as easy as pie. Thank god it's getting better though! (although I wish mom and my brother would stop fighting.. lol XD). Plus, I've been spending more time with friends in and outside of school (does xbox count a little? XD), so I've been getting better with that too.
Anyways, how are you? :D
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I don't have to worry about you, is what I'm saying. XD
I'm great! Thanks for asking! Oh, I want to ask you, did you want to join a few of us from the ianthony comm on Skype? You can create another account if it's your identity you're worried about. There's about 11 of us all chatting with each other and it's really fun! My Skype is the same as my lj username if you choose to join us! :D
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I can accept him for that, but I feel like he may actually be a douchebag and I'm just too in love with his personality to realize so :/. But I guess I'll try to accept that bad fact of his and hope he's not also a douche. Life always has to have drama, doesn't it?
I'd love to join skype, but my mom is completely against that stuff. She hates oovoo and things with chatting that show your face (which I can completely understand, skype can be pretty unsafe if you use the camera thingy with people you don't know.. and you could also be a perv on there too XD.). I don't think it'd go over too well if she found out I was skyping with some slash fans also, because even though she accepts me for liking slash, she probably would think we're watching porn or something X'D.
Anyways, thanks, and have a great day! Feel free to email me your problems too if you want to :).
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