"I just wanna fall on the floor again." -vickie papageorge
I'm really tired right now but I have some things I think I want to get off my chest.
At this point in my life I know I have true friends. I have several people in my life that I feel I will know and keep in touch with forever. (Or at least I hope and wish that I do). I love all my friends and thank God that I have them in my life. But right now, and lately, I feel so lonely. Tonight I think I figured out why. I miss it. What is it? I'm not exactly sure what it is, but I do know that I miss it.
I think it is a relationship. No, not even a relationship. I think it may be the feeling that you have when you’re in a relationship. You know the feeling I’m talking about. The butterflies in your stomach, the constant smile painted on your face, the confidence, the thinking that nothing has ever made you this happy ever before, the feeling that nothing can bring you down from this utopia, that high you get. I miss it.
One night a month or so ago I got that feeling. You know what you do when you get that feeling. Your face lights up, you twirl around, you fall to the ground, look up at the sky (or ceiling) with a sparkle in your eyes, and lay there with a glow on your face. You lay there till someone makes you get up because you don't want to. You want to stay there and keep that feeling forever, because nothing quite compares. I long for this feeling and Vickie said it best tonight, "I just wanna fall on the floor again."
I'm not going to sit here and say I want a long term serious relationship because I really don't think that I do. It’s just not a good time for one in my life. I'm at school and I have a lot on my plate. But I do want someone in my life that can make me fall on the floor in pure happiness. I want someone that I can talk to about anything and everything. Yes I have friends that I can talk to about whatever I want or need to talk about but it’s different when you have someone that gives you it and can have a deep conversation with. I want it from someone that cares about me and is genuine about everything that they say. Is that asking too much? Sitting here tonight my answer would have to be yes. Tonight I don't think that there is anyone out there that could ever do or be this for me. Maybe it’s because they aren't mature yet. Maybe it’s because they aren't ready yet. Or maybe it’s because I’m not ready to find them yet. Whatever the reason, I can't wait till I find it again.
At this point in my life I know I have true friends. I have several people in my life that I feel I will know and keep in touch with forever. (Or at least I hope and wish that I do). I love all my friends and thank God that I have them in my life. But right now, and lately, I feel so lonely. Tonight I think I figured out why. I miss it. What is it? I'm not exactly sure what it is, but I do know that I miss it.
I think it is a relationship. No, not even a relationship. I think it may be the feeling that you have when you’re in a relationship. You know the feeling I’m talking about. The butterflies in your stomach, the constant smile painted on your face, the confidence, the thinking that nothing has ever made you this happy ever before, the feeling that nothing can bring you down from this utopia, that high you get. I miss it.
One night a month or so ago I got that feeling. You know what you do when you get that feeling. Your face lights up, you twirl around, you fall to the ground, look up at the sky (or ceiling) with a sparkle in your eyes, and lay there with a glow on your face. You lay there till someone makes you get up because you don't want to. You want to stay there and keep that feeling forever, because nothing quite compares. I long for this feeling and Vickie said it best tonight, "I just wanna fall on the floor again."
I'm not going to sit here and say I want a long term serious relationship because I really don't think that I do. It’s just not a good time for one in my life. I'm at school and I have a lot on my plate. But I do want someone in my life that can make me fall on the floor in pure happiness. I want someone that I can talk to about anything and everything. Yes I have friends that I can talk to about whatever I want or need to talk about but it’s different when you have someone that gives you it and can have a deep conversation with. I want it from someone that cares about me and is genuine about everything that they say. Is that asking too much? Sitting here tonight my answer would have to be yes. Tonight I don't think that there is anyone out there that could ever do or be this for me. Maybe it’s because they aren't mature yet. Maybe it’s because they aren't ready yet. Or maybe it’s because I’m not ready to find them yet. Whatever the reason, I can't wait till I find it again.