Still hate him
He kept coming down from hunting, didn't get anything, just waisted a bunch of money and made his leg worse.
I thought things were getting better, but they're not. He's just holding it in. Me too.
I hate him today day more than most. I'm killing myself trying to do his job and mine. Because the doctor said he could find anything wrong, so try staying off it for 3 WEEKS. So after doing nothing for over 3 weeks, now he needs to talke another 3 weeks. Mean while I can't do anything right again. If I dare to be presumptutious enough to do what he told me, he has to tell me how I should have done something else...after of course I've already done it or most of it. I only have to do this crap because he was busy screwing off instead of working at the log cabin. Or because his ego was bruised and he couldn't work, from rolling the backhoe.
My syatica is so bad I can barely move my leg with my legs muscles, and yet he still has to cause problems. And do everything he can to make my life harder. I loaded up the truck so I can work on the septic at the log cabin, then he moved all the tools. Set out tools that I don't even need or want. So then I had to walk extra junk to the truck...for what...to make him feel like a man??? Why do I keep doing this crap. I guess my ego is in there somewhere. I feel like, keep dishing it out, and I'll keep doing it. Maybe if he keeps hurting me enough, I'll get the courage to leave again.
We're not really talking. I'm afraid IF I do, I'll tell him how I really feel. Then he'll cry like a baby. I feel like I'm married to a 16 year old boy and a 16 year old girl. I'm so tired of his split personality. I raised my teenagers and they weren't this bad.
He watches negitive crap all the time, it's so bad, I really think that's why his lost his faith. First he wanted to justify his bad behavior, then he kept watching the crap to where now it has rotted his brain.
I just want the log house livable. Then, I want out of this "relationship".
I thought things were getting better, but they're not. He's just holding it in. Me too.
I hate him today day more than most. I'm killing myself trying to do his job and mine. Because the doctor said he could find anything wrong, so try staying off it for 3 WEEKS. So after doing nothing for over 3 weeks, now he needs to talke another 3 weeks. Mean while I can't do anything right again. If I dare to be presumptutious enough to do what he told me, he has to tell me how I should have done something else...after of course I've already done it or most of it. I only have to do this crap because he was busy screwing off instead of working at the log cabin. Or because his ego was bruised and he couldn't work, from rolling the backhoe.
My syatica is so bad I can barely move my leg with my legs muscles, and yet he still has to cause problems. And do everything he can to make my life harder. I loaded up the truck so I can work on the septic at the log cabin, then he moved all the tools. Set out tools that I don't even need or want. So then I had to walk extra junk to the truck...for what...to make him feel like a man??? Why do I keep doing this crap. I guess my ego is in there somewhere. I feel like, keep dishing it out, and I'll keep doing it. Maybe if he keeps hurting me enough, I'll get the courage to leave again.
We're not really talking. I'm afraid IF I do, I'll tell him how I really feel. Then he'll cry like a baby. I feel like I'm married to a 16 year old boy and a 16 year old girl. I'm so tired of his split personality. I raised my teenagers and they weren't this bad.
He watches negitive crap all the time, it's so bad, I really think that's why his lost his faith. First he wanted to justify his bad behavior, then he kept watching the crap to where now it has rotted his brain.
I just want the log house livable. Then, I want out of this "relationship".