sitting on couch at oatley writing on paper
im so tierd yet i just slept 14 hours and my body feels so weak and my brain feels even weaker...but here i am ready to continue on with the battle.
I got all the information for the place in Byron Bay yesterday, it sounds like the exact thing i need so i can come back and be the best possible version of myself that i can be and move forward in life instead of plumetng backwards.
The written version of this is shocking handwriting because its hard to write when your shaking.
Im not really scarred anymore to go there, just happy to fix my life up.
I applied for a centrelink benefit the other day to fund it and have a one hour doctors consultation next Tuesday.
The place has heaps of programs and shit that will help me deal with and get over alot of shit instead of always thinking about it.
They have surfing and drama there too which may give me some self esteem.
Then ill be heaps confident and will be bale to do my graphic design course at tafe mid year when i get back and do my acting and modelling on the side.
Things are begining to look clearer and less impossible now, still a fair way to go yet but at least i have some goalsto work on now. LIFE!
So my aim is to be good and try not to fuck it all up now.
I will most likly be living with my brother James when i get back and my parents will be moving to QLD so everythign will turn out for the best. When i move back, it'll be back to mortdale... or OAtely.
I need to be around the ones who care about me and the ones i care about.
Anyways im gonna go board of writing now,
Love Em
PS I wana steal a PHAT hug.
I got all the information for the place in Byron Bay yesterday, it sounds like the exact thing i need so i can come back and be the best possible version of myself that i can be and move forward in life instead of plumetng backwards.
The written version of this is shocking handwriting because its hard to write when your shaking.
Im not really scarred anymore to go there, just happy to fix my life up.
I applied for a centrelink benefit the other day to fund it and have a one hour doctors consultation next Tuesday.
The place has heaps of programs and shit that will help me deal with and get over alot of shit instead of always thinking about it.
They have surfing and drama there too which may give me some self esteem.
Then ill be heaps confident and will be bale to do my graphic design course at tafe mid year when i get back and do my acting and modelling on the side.
Things are begining to look clearer and less impossible now, still a fair way to go yet but at least i have some goalsto work on now. LIFE!
So my aim is to be good and try not to fuck it all up now.
I will most likly be living with my brother James when i get back and my parents will be moving to QLD so everythign will turn out for the best. When i move back, it'll be back to mortdale... or OAtely.
I need to be around the ones who care about me and the ones i care about.
Anyways im gonna go board of writing now,
Love Em
PS I wana steal a PHAT hug.