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I feel very out of place. After being in Australia for three years coming back to the US and being involved in classes is odd, I imagine everyone as coming from places I cant imagine, which probably they do, but when I hadnt gone to Australia I pretended to better understand where people are coming from. Now, everyone seems foreign...
It is also weird to come to a new place. I know my parents, but beyond that, the people I have day to day interactions with are all brand new to me and I to them and so there is a constant state of awkwardness in those interactions. I feel like I'm perpetually stuck in a first date with everyone I meet. I'm sure this will dissipate soon, but it is incredible what this does to ones sense of place... not that the awkwardness is one sided, but because it comes at me from all directions it takes a lot of energy NOT to feel like the weird one.
Third, reading for a doctorate is a bit intense. And I've crossed this weird threshhold where now when I read 200 pages of school stuff all day the way I want to wind down at the end of the day is by reading non-school related stuff. This might not be odd for some, but for a kid who didnt really enjoy reading until recently (I think I only read two or three of the books assigned in high school, who knows what I read undergrad) it is.
That is all.
It is also weird to come to a new place. I know my parents, but beyond that, the people I have day to day interactions with are all brand new to me and I to them and so there is a constant state of awkwardness in those interactions. I feel like I'm perpetually stuck in a first date with everyone I meet. I'm sure this will dissipate soon, but it is incredible what this does to ones sense of place... not that the awkwardness is one sided, but because it comes at me from all directions it takes a lot of energy NOT to feel like the weird one.
Third, reading for a doctorate is a bit intense. And I've crossed this weird threshhold where now when I read 200 pages of school stuff all day the way I want to wind down at the end of the day is by reading non-school related stuff. This might not be odd for some, but for a kid who didnt really enjoy reading until recently (I think I only read two or three of the books assigned in high school, who knows what I read undergrad) it is.
That is all.