Abandoned at Space Camp: Revisited: Chapter III: As If In a Dream
so it's almost here
the end of B term
and i hate to say
that i didn't do as well as i thought i would
i'm going to fail at least one class
which means i lose my financial aid
which means that it costs me 45 grand to come here a year
all out of my pocket
45 grand of money i dont have
and probably never will
it all hinges on hope
or a dream
i used to always fancy myself a dreamer
and always thought i knew what my dreams were
but i find i am more simple than that
much more simple than any of my dreams
but maybe that means that my real dreams were much simpler than i thought they were
if that's so, why am i going through this?
why am i putting myself through all of this tourture to try and achive something that may not even be what i want?
i could stop it all right now and work for something simpler
and if that's all that i want
i dont see why i dont do it
but i dont know if that is what i want
or if it would work out even if it was what i want
it's all based on something so fragile
and something this important shouldnt be built on such a weak base
something as like to the will-'o-the-whisp
as a whim of something irrelivant
and yet it is so important
because it is the base of so much importance
what do i do?
follow the dream i used to think was my own
or set a new course
to follow the dream i see in my heart now?
both seem so unreal
as dreams do
but one of them has to be real
i just haven't found out which one i want to be real yet
or which one could be real
so much on so little
if this were a tower it would fall over
and i dont know which way i want it to fall
which path to take
...
i dont know
i guess i just have to wait to find out...
i'll be hoe soon
it will be nice to relax
it will be nice to spend time with the people i care about
all of them
only a week and a half left
i can't wait to be home
it's odd to say since i used to want no more than to be out of there
and now i would give my life to get back
haha
well i'll be back soon
and till then all i can do is wait to get back
one week
then home
till then
-caelloki
the end of B term
and i hate to say
that i didn't do as well as i thought i would
i'm going to fail at least one class
which means i lose my financial aid
which means that it costs me 45 grand to come here a year
all out of my pocket
45 grand of money i dont have
and probably never will
it all hinges on hope
or a dream
i used to always fancy myself a dreamer
and always thought i knew what my dreams were
but i find i am more simple than that
much more simple than any of my dreams
but maybe that means that my real dreams were much simpler than i thought they were
if that's so, why am i going through this?
why am i putting myself through all of this tourture to try and achive something that may not even be what i want?
i could stop it all right now and work for something simpler
and if that's all that i want
i dont see why i dont do it
but i dont know if that is what i want
or if it would work out even if it was what i want
it's all based on something so fragile
and something this important shouldnt be built on such a weak base
something as like to the will-'o-the-whisp
as a whim of something irrelivant
and yet it is so important
because it is the base of so much importance
what do i do?
follow the dream i used to think was my own
or set a new course
to follow the dream i see in my heart now?
both seem so unreal
as dreams do
but one of them has to be real
i just haven't found out which one i want to be real yet
or which one could be real
so much on so little
if this were a tower it would fall over
and i dont know which way i want it to fall
which path to take
...
i dont know
i guess i just have to wait to find out...
i'll be hoe soon
it will be nice to relax
it will be nice to spend time with the people i care about
all of them
only a week and a half left
i can't wait to be home
it's odd to say since i used to want no more than to be out of there
and now i would give my life to get back
haha
well i'll be back soon
and till then all i can do is wait to get back
one week
then home
till then
-caelloki