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well today has been a day..
not going to get into the full details today but i feel so frustrated right now.
I hate how people can be so sneaky and corrupted to make mankind a little less appealing.
But at the same time i feel annoyed by people around me. I feel like im so different than the people around me. They complain, come up with ideas but never really do them.
My personal safety was jeopardized today because someone probably thinks Im not old enough or is trying to "protect me." People need to realize that the worse thing is life is not knowing. If someone doesnt tell u something because they dont want you to worry its not good for u. Its more of a danger to you.
Im so unhappy with some aspects of my life right now. dealing with crap..I need to learn to let it out or else im going to go nuts and end up on a newspaper cover somewhere..
I really think people overlook me, dont pay the proper attention to me. Its like "wilson is tough, he can survive.. Wilson never complains life is so so hard for him, wilson never complains about his family, it must mean he doesnt have issues. Let me complain about my pretty spoiled life that i want to make sound bad so everyone can feel bad for me and give me their attention and pity."
Ive always felt that no one really wants to get to know me and know whats up with me. Im the guy who has driven people places, taken care of them when they too drunk, been the shoulder to cry on, being the supporter when you needed it. Yet I feel like people expect stuff from me but the moment i decide to take a break its like oh no! how dare i. I wonder why that is. Its probably the reason why i have few "friends" now. I dont want to bother getting close to people who only are for themselves. Its the little things that show u that people really care about, not that they just there for their gain. PEOPLE ALWAYS DEMAND/EXPECT but never give back or understand.
Its probably why i feel so relaxed when im alone. I love solitude.
How i enjoyed my solitude as a child..i miss those days...life was so simple in the hills of ecuador(yes i know that sounds cheesy but its true), not like this hell-hole known as America.
Foreign people always dreams of the glory and chance of here, but no one tells you of the pain and hardship you meet here. The almight dollar chances you life forever, for good AND bad.
so..i bet u(the few that read this) must think im nuts or something now. Dont worry im not going to go kill anyone(even though i think i could have today). Im gonna be myself, just suck it up and be cool. be calm.....for now...
not going to get into the full details today but i feel so frustrated right now.
I hate how people can be so sneaky and corrupted to make mankind a little less appealing.
But at the same time i feel annoyed by people around me. I feel like im so different than the people around me. They complain, come up with ideas but never really do them.
My personal safety was jeopardized today because someone probably thinks Im not old enough or is trying to "protect me." People need to realize that the worse thing is life is not knowing. If someone doesnt tell u something because they dont want you to worry its not good for u. Its more of a danger to you.
Im so unhappy with some aspects of my life right now. dealing with crap..I need to learn to let it out or else im going to go nuts and end up on a newspaper cover somewhere..
I really think people overlook me, dont pay the proper attention to me. Its like "wilson is tough, he can survive.. Wilson never complains life is so so hard for him, wilson never complains about his family, it must mean he doesnt have issues. Let me complain about my pretty spoiled life that i want to make sound bad so everyone can feel bad for me and give me their attention and pity."
Ive always felt that no one really wants to get to know me and know whats up with me. Im the guy who has driven people places, taken care of them when they too drunk, been the shoulder to cry on, being the supporter when you needed it. Yet I feel like people expect stuff from me but the moment i decide to take a break its like oh no! how dare i. I wonder why that is. Its probably the reason why i have few "friends" now. I dont want to bother getting close to people who only are for themselves. Its the little things that show u that people really care about, not that they just there for their gain. PEOPLE ALWAYS DEMAND/EXPECT but never give back or understand.
Its probably why i feel so relaxed when im alone. I love solitude.
How i enjoyed my solitude as a child..i miss those days...life was so simple in the hills of ecuador(yes i know that sounds cheesy but its true), not like this hell-hole known as America.
Foreign people always dreams of the glory and chance of here, but no one tells you of the pain and hardship you meet here. The almight dollar chances you life forever, for good AND bad.
so..i bet u(the few that read this) must think im nuts or something now. Dont worry im not going to go kill anyone(even though i think i could have today). Im gonna be myself, just suck it up and be cool. be calm.....for now...