I Just Want You
Title: I Just Want You Ch.1
Author: yama_miko
Pairing: TaDaiki, Ariyama, and other pairing.
Genre:Angst
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I don’t own them just the plot of the story,
Warning: Terrible grammar. And this is my first time writing fanfic.
Summary: He thought that broke up with his boyfriend was the right choice. Because he will not be a burden for him and by letting him go will make his boyfriend happy. Is that so?
Ah~ I’m suck to make summary.
saa~ douzo~
[Dear, Pingu-chan]
Daiki’s POV
My lovely hospital room 326,
July 20th, 2012
Dear Pingu-chan,
We are here again for the nth time, woke up in this room alone. Yeah~this room is like a second home to me. However, since the first time I stayed in this hospital I just want to be in this room, and I claimed it since 5 year ago this was my room, only for me. this room was never changed, still has the same of view, smells and atmosphore it's cold and lonely. only the room number, it was like you were here with me.
I wish you were here with me,…..
But I should not be selfish. I have to be strong to face all this, ne, Pingu-chan?! cuz I don;t want make my bandmates, my friends, and our fans all worry. I have enough seeing my mother cried all night because of me, so did my best friend. that way, lets get stronger ne Pingu-chan! Fighting!!! we can get through it.Yosh!.
Ja~lets talk bout what I have done and what I have remembered this weeks ne~
Pingu-chan guess what???!! I get the role in Kindaichi Shounen no Jikenbo 4th Generation. It’s Great isn’t it?! Hahaha. And we will be filming in Hong Kong yeyeye~ I’m so excited.
Even I’m not the main role, but I get the good one, and it suit me well. I’ve to learn more and do my best so that I can get the main role next
time, don’t you think so, Pingu-chan?!.
I know, I know, I know it so well that I’ll get tired easily, but we need to earn money too for me to be able to pay all of this medication deshou?! . So, you just have to support me Pingu-chan~ Finally we have finished all stuff bout JUMP WORLD tour, and the DVD will be realese soon. Otsukareiiii~
Until now, nothing has changed much, this year was a busy year for us HEY! SAY! JUMP, new album and promotion activity, touring around Japan and Asia, and there will be Johnnu World Butai at the end of the year, Summary and Countdown, many interviews and photoshoot for magazines, tv
apperance and etc... and of course our individual activity.
Still no one notice tough, I don’t know if they are really don’t notice the changed on me or they are actually knew it and just pretending not to,
cuz you knew that I’m just stubborn as always, keeping this all alone inside but for my families and my best friend and of course Johnny-san, I
cant hide anything from him.
I miss him I really really really do, I love him so much, he’s my first love after all. I just want him to be here with me, smiling sweetly at me, warm me with his arm, I just want to be with him. But I cant, with my current condition, he shouldn’t have with someone like me, he deserved someone better that me, that can always stay with him not me who will be a burden for him. I just want to see him smiling happily. cuz it'll be easier when the time I've to leave him for real.And finally he has back to himself, being stupid, cool and childish at the same time, fooling all around, making lame joke to 7 members and many other sillyness he have. It hurt seeing him smiling to someone else, hanging out with somebody else, seeing closeness and lovey dovey moment of them, it torn me apart, but I have to bear it. I love seeing him happy and lively…
I love you
I love you
I will always love you even if I’m not with you
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“Yo!” someone entering the room.
“Oh, hi! Are you going to pick me up?” I asked him, with soft and still weak voice.
“yeah, of course. I’m sorry that I can’t accompany you this morning.” He answered as he walk toward my bed side.
“it’s okay, you don’t have to apoligize” I smiled gratefully.
“So, how was it?, are you feel headache? Dizzy? can you walk properly? Can you see and hear me just fine?” he asked me quickly while his hand touching my head then forehead to my feet going up to my right eye open and closing it and leaning his face to my ear speaking.
“Oi,Oi,Oi, don’t speak that fast! I just feel headache and my eyes bit blurry, I can walk and hear you, BAKA!” I shout at him (well it’s not loud cuz my voice still weak guys). He’s cute~. He was concerned about me I can see it in his eyes. I’m so grateful that Kami-sama sent him to me, he’s The Caring, Kind, and Great Best Friend Forever. Despite no matter what we went through, what we was, and what I have done to him. He’s still here with me and not leaving my side.
“Oh sorry, I just want to know what do you feel right now. Well, let’s go back then, I think the others seem to have asking where you are now.” He said. He take my bag and help me get down from the bed (Hey! I can do it by myself!). We walk out the hospital and he hold my arm tightly, he know that I cant see clearly.
"Did you bring any glasses?” I ask him
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Arriving at the dorm…
“I can walk by my self. Don’t spoil me.” I got annoyed at his behaviour. It’s not like I can’t step out from the car and walk to the dorm anyway. I just don’t want the others to find out.
He sighed “Don’t be stubborn! Here let me help you.” Yeah he is a stubborn himself, he hold my right arm and lead me to the dorm door. When it opened, we was greated by worried Yabu.
“Where you have been Dai-chan? I know that today was your day off, but at least tell me where you are and what you do. You don’t answers our phone calls or even reply our messages. And this is not the first time you’re like this Dai-chan? Tell us or just tell me, I notice that your face is pale and you’ve changed.” Our unofficial leader said. I gulp, I cant look at him. He put his hand on my shoulder encourage me to answer him. But how can I answer him, I’m not ready to thell him or the others, and I don’t have any tought to tell them. I just looking down and grab my bestfriend hand hard give him signal to answer Yabu. He was going to speak up but~
“Is Dai-chan going on date? Is that the reason why he don’t want us to bother him? Cuz he’ve a date?” Hikaru suddenly pop up beside Yabu. Gah~ he is just like ghost or magician but with how his face shown right now, he is definitely a clown, an evil clown. Oh~ I feel dizzy again.
“Oh, Hi Yama-chan? Why did you came back with Dai-chan anyway? Are you two going back together again?” Hikaru asked Yamada with his tease tone.
“Yeah, you’re right Hikaru-kun, Dai-chan has a date” He answer cassually. (what he thought about? Why did he say that? Yama-chan!!! What are you saying right now???!!!)
“EEEHH???!” Yabu and Hikaru said in unison, their voice was loud enough to makes the other members who are watching movie turn around to us.
“Dare?” “Dare?” “Dare Dai-chan?” Yuto and Keito who was cuddle each other asking curiously.
(Crap~ Yabai Yabai) Then I see him sitting on the couch, he don’t bother to see on us, to see me, and just continue watching movie and caressing Chinen’s hair who was sleeping with his head on his lap. I don’t want to stay here any longer. I feel my head spinning and I grip Yamada’s hand harder. Yamada notice it and say “It’s late already, we’re going to our room. Tomorrow we’ve tight schedule don’t we?! So we want to rest and sleep in peace. And BTW you two just like security guard asking us some question before we can pass the door, huh.”
“Omae~” Hikaru was going to whack Yamada but Yabu grab him. Thanks Yabu and I’m sorry. I and Yamada was on the stair heading to tour room. I feel hurt so badly not because the headache. The pain was more than that. And the scene keep repeating on my head. I cant believe that I’m actually crying, good thing that I don’t take the glasses off.
“Oh btw Dai-chan, since when Penguin wearing sunglasses? Ha???. Now is midnight yo! HAHHAHAHA” Hikaru shout out. Yuto and Keito begin to laugh too. And then~
“CAN YOU GUYS JUST SHUT UP!!!!” he shout out. “like what you said Hikaru, it's midnight already so can you guys put your voice down”
Looking at Chinen “Sorry Chii I woke you up, let's move to the room.”
With that, suddenly I feel my legs are weak, I was shocked that he yell to us or to me? And then his caring voice which full of affection toward Chii. Aaah~ the pain in my head and hurt in my heart is too much already, I’m still weak because of the session I have at hospital, I just want to rest. I lost my balance when I step into the third stairstep, luckily yamada catch me and take me in his arms.
“DAIKIIII!!!!!” I heard my bandmates calling my name and gathering around me.
"Yuya` "I say weakly and smiled faintly before all went black.
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a/n : Ohayo Minna or Annyong Haseyo???!!! This is is my very first time writing fic.!!! So please minna, feel free to read this. Give me your opinion. Don’t smack my head if it is a fail just pinch my check hehehe~. Smile at me or give me a chu~ if it is good. Comments are needed :)