God, Homework Is So Hard;
I can't explain to you the trouble I am having with concentration. There's is only so much you can re-read and plumb over things you already understand. I think it may be because I've had some sugar today and yesterday and no exercise to get rid of it with. It's terribly frustrating especially with so much reading. Honestly I'm about to burst it's so annoying.
In other news have a new number I need to cancel because the lady who serves me was... umm... silly? Bad at her job? I'm not sure. So I will have had a plan for three days that I am unable to use because tattered_pinion forgets things and the phone I am borrowing is so shit I can't begin to explain how frustrating it is to use. I may be used to the finer things in life, like phones with nice buttons, but I can seem to go back I suppose. *grumbles*
This not being able to concentrate on homework is really hard. Yes I've taken brakes, yes I've tried to do little bits of exercise. Nothing seems to work. I'm not entirely sure what's wrong with me. This should be simple.
But I didn't get on here to grumble, it was to point out to everybody that I now have a license so if there needs to be things done and those things that need doing are needed to be done by an over 18 person. Well, I'm your girl. It took longer then expected. Also someone put it on my desk and didn't actually tell me it was on my desk. Whatever.
One week 2 days to go.
Can't decide if to wear trashy things to the burlesque drawing thing (including my new leg warmers) or whether I go classy with my pretty skirt and top which would require high heals. OH MAN. GIRL. I dunno. I just like wearing things and Mum always taught me to be dressed appropriately and so I usually feel awkward when I'm under-dressed/overdressed. Why do I so care about being girly? I'm so misogynistic sometimes. Got to get over it but I'm not entirely sure how to address it. Ergh. Sometimes I need strange things. Recently I've been needing ... [Interruption, maybe I'm not able to concentrate because of drama? Perhaps a subconscious need to feel guilty? I mean more guilty? I felt somewhat worried yesterday. Though... OH WAIT YOU [Live Journal readers] DON'T KNOW >> The parents are separating. It could also be that, but I thought I had come to grips with it. Think I have come to grips with it. I was pushing for it in the first place. Self-deception seems too easy a thing to blame, but I suppose I'd be the least likely person to know. Anyway, I haven't solved anything, I just gave two unfounded ideas about why I'm easily distracted.] ... Recently I've been needing the mannerisms of friends I don't hang out with a lot. Like nicholii and zharradan. I'm not sure why, though I know I wanted the hugs of nicholii because they're always on offer (I also wanted his undivided attention he can give, I think).
Why? Perhaps it's just my boredom (no offense intended).
Also bloodied_aura if you want me to hang out more at parties you should try and hang around me too (since I was trying to hang around you at the party at Mahonia, but I'd move on after a while when the conversation turned back to alcohol).
I don't have a waist. I suppose this took me a long time to realise. Corsets: underbust with silly frills or overbust with lacing? I'm getting the smaller version JIC. It's about |-----------| that much too small in the biggest part and |----| that much too small in the smallest bit (the lady in the store said that you should have around 2 inches of space). I'm more likely to lose weight then gain it and, like auntpol said, bigger gaps look better then smaller ones. If anyone has any input please give it.
Ergh. I really want to do some fashion shots. Maybe I should enlist bloodied_aura and her corset. I don't have the space or the talent. I just really love the look that fashion shots can have. So clean. I want to represent that. RL shots are never like that. :/ I wonder if I could set something rudimentary up in the shed?
I love you all. I really need to get out of the house. I'm not lying. This week I may skip swimming, even though Mum needs me at the moment I'm not sure I can handle not being me for my afternoons. The gym is a lot quicker and satisfying. So is sleep.
She's leaving now cause I just heard the slamming of the door,
The way I know I heard it slam one hundred times before,
And if I could move I'd get my gun and put her in the ground.
Oh Ruby, don't take your love to town.
In other news have a new number I need to cancel because the lady who serves me was... umm... silly? Bad at her job? I'm not sure. So I will have had a plan for three days that I am unable to use because tattered_pinion forgets things and the phone I am borrowing is so shit I can't begin to explain how frustrating it is to use. I may be used to the finer things in life, like phones with nice buttons, but I can seem to go back I suppose. *grumbles*
This not being able to concentrate on homework is really hard. Yes I've taken brakes, yes I've tried to do little bits of exercise. Nothing seems to work. I'm not entirely sure what's wrong with me. This should be simple.
But I didn't get on here to grumble, it was to point out to everybody that I now have a license so if there needs to be things done and those things that need doing are needed to be done by an over 18 person. Well, I'm your girl. It took longer then expected. Also someone put it on my desk and didn't actually tell me it was on my desk. Whatever.
One week 2 days to go.
Can't decide if to wear trashy things to the burlesque drawing thing (including my new leg warmers) or whether I go classy with my pretty skirt and top which would require high heals. OH MAN. GIRL. I dunno. I just like wearing things and Mum always taught me to be dressed appropriately and so I usually feel awkward when I'm under-dressed/overdressed. Why do I so care about being girly? I'm so misogynistic sometimes. Got to get over it but I'm not entirely sure how to address it. Ergh. Sometimes I need strange things. Recently I've been needing ... [Interruption, maybe I'm not able to concentrate because of drama? Perhaps a subconscious need to feel guilty? I mean more guilty? I felt somewhat worried yesterday. Though... OH WAIT YOU [Live Journal readers] DON'T KNOW >> The parents are separating. It could also be that, but I thought I had come to grips with it. Think I have come to grips with it. I was pushing for it in the first place. Self-deception seems too easy a thing to blame, but I suppose I'd be the least likely person to know. Anyway, I haven't solved anything, I just gave two unfounded ideas about why I'm easily distracted.] ... Recently I've been needing the mannerisms of friends I don't hang out with a lot. Like nicholii and zharradan. I'm not sure why, though I know I wanted the hugs of nicholii because they're always on offer (I also wanted his undivided attention he can give, I think).
Why? Perhaps it's just my boredom (no offense intended).
Also bloodied_aura if you want me to hang out more at parties you should try and hang around me too (since I was trying to hang around you at the party at Mahonia, but I'd move on after a while when the conversation turned back to alcohol).
I don't have a waist. I suppose this took me a long time to realise. Corsets: underbust with silly frills or overbust with lacing? I'm getting the smaller version JIC. It's about |-----------| that much too small in the biggest part and |----| that much too small in the smallest bit (the lady in the store said that you should have around 2 inches of space). I'm more likely to lose weight then gain it and, like auntpol said, bigger gaps look better then smaller ones. If anyone has any input please give it.
Ergh. I really want to do some fashion shots. Maybe I should enlist bloodied_aura and her corset. I don't have the space or the talent. I just really love the look that fashion shots can have. So clean. I want to represent that. RL shots are never like that. :/ I wonder if I could set something rudimentary up in the shed?
I love you all. I really need to get out of the house. I'm not lying. This week I may skip swimming, even though Mum needs me at the moment I'm not sure I can handle not being me for my afternoons. The gym is a lot quicker and satisfying. So is sleep.
She's leaving now cause I just heard the slamming of the door,
The way I know I heard it slam one hundred times before,
And if I could move I'd get my gun and put her in the ground.
Oh Ruby, don't take your love to town.