and so i have decided this is going to be long
i deleted a bunch of entries today and im not so sure why. i cant even remember where i stopped... i just did.
i suppose alot has happened that i would rather forget or rather deny that i ever went through it. yes it does sounds strange even to me and its my thought.
i have been thinking alot and remember old times and how good things were at one time... well i suppose its wrong to say good... they were just different. its so strange to look back and feel LIKE I IMAGINED MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE UP UNTIL THIS POINT. so today i am going to try start living and feeling.
its strange, i have only been gone from windsor for a week and a half and already my mentality has changed... as it does everytime i leave.
i have thinking alot about anita lately and hope to get in contact with her soon. i miss the times we were together and had so much trust for each other.
last night was strange...
my sister is talking about moving to nelson. i have no comment about this. .. wait yes i do. she was gone for only ten days and i went crazy without her... what am i going to do forever without her? yes i am sounding selfish but what can you do? maybe i will just have to move with her when i get back.
i only wish to describe exactly what i am thinking right now... but i will reserve myself and remember that everything i have ever done in my lifetime has always been my choice.
xo
i suppose alot has happened that i would rather forget or rather deny that i ever went through it. yes it does sounds strange even to me and its my thought.
i have been thinking alot and remember old times and how good things were at one time... well i suppose its wrong to say good... they were just different. its so strange to look back and feel LIKE I IMAGINED MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE UP UNTIL THIS POINT. so today i am going to try start living and feeling.
its strange, i have only been gone from windsor for a week and a half and already my mentality has changed... as it does everytime i leave.
i have thinking alot about anita lately and hope to get in contact with her soon. i miss the times we were together and had so much trust for each other.
last night was strange...
my sister is talking about moving to nelson. i have no comment about this. .. wait yes i do. she was gone for only ten days and i went crazy without her... what am i going to do forever without her? yes i am sounding selfish but what can you do? maybe i will just have to move with her when i get back.
i only wish to describe exactly what i am thinking right now... but i will reserve myself and remember that everything i have ever done in my lifetime has always been my choice.
xo