intoxicating delight dead
i haven't read anywhere that he is dead. only in her journal. i pray it's not true. he means so much to me and actually gave me hope that people could change, but if so he is dead, in this manner, he completely disregarded everything he sang to us and stressed. so many people looked to him for help and now so many people will suffer. it's not like he asked for it, the praise and begging eyes, in fact i felt sorry for him for that, but does anyone really pay attention to that part when starting. if you want it one way, but not in all ways, but you still have some same effect, maybe he hoped for them to leave at the preferred way. does anyone but me understand this? i won't be able to look in my cd book without crying for i don't even know how long. he was just so fragile, i saw that he was that night, when he collapsed, but i was hoping it wasn't. someone that young and meaningful to so many people. it's almost like living through the time of rio's death, since it somewhat passed me when it happened, seeing as i was 5... but i just wish i could take this back somehow, take back this horrible event. i find it hard to believe that i can't and i almsot cry in just defeat of the fact. and i feel so bad to bring up such a fact as that i am in love with someone who seems so tagged and had a great afternoon, while this has just been presented in front of me. please don't be true... oh god, please don't be true.