Should I make lemonade?
I'm so tired. Although I suppose I could be more tired, I'm definitely daydreaming about napping today. Class isn't until 1pm. I have no money for food. The book I need to do my attendance/homework is checked out. Killing time in the library it is.
I had one major assignment due today in my morning class on Community (which I really like!) which was 20% of my grade. It was a sort of presentation on a reading, and I think I did pretty well. I hope so. I'm also doing better than normal on attendance. I need to talk to my professors still about not being around after next week while I'll be in Vegas. Anyway, but I am enjoying both my classes even though they are heavy on reading, and I really would like to ace both. It would be nice for my own self-worth, just to know that I'm not completely incapable of doing well in school anymore. People that ask if I'm going to grad school make me laugh. Of course I used to want to go, but even now... not for awhile. I would consider Peace Studies (emph. on Middle East), Globalization (sociologically speaking), something having to do with sustainability or the environment and politics or sociology, or just plain ol' International Relations. But I'm not cut out for that right now. Maybe after like 5 years of work experience and doing other stuff. I need to grow up still.
I also need to speak with my advisor, but I'm putting that off too because it always makes me feel terrible to go in there and be like, "yeah I know my grades are bad... yeah.. I don't know why they haven't kicked me out either. Oh, I'm not graduating when I thought I'd be? Lame." Blah. I do need to go, though. I've got to see if I'm still on schedule, and how to get those incompletes gone from the UCLA session. I'll go tomorrow. :\
One cool thing is that I finally got to speak with Claire yesterday. I didn't particularly have 2.5 hours to spare to chat (due to the assignment I had, although I didn't realize it was due today until 10pm), but it was great to talk to her because I'd been guilting myself over not calling her since before her birthday at the end of May. I'm terrible at keeping in touch! Really terrible. Luckily Claire is understanding about how busy I am, and she never seems displeased with me over not returning calls soon enough.
Anyway, so she's finally actually doing a radio show--independent news of course--thats partly followed on the internet and partly on AM/FM! She's got a great list of contacts as fas as getting people for interviews and her background in PR, entertainment, and all that is surely going to take her far. But she asked me if I'd be interested in hosting the show with her, or at least doing guest host stuff (if I don't want to full-on host with her)! How cool, right? At first I was kind of like, "oh that'd be fun, yeah, maybe!" But the more I think about it, it sounds like something to really look forward to. I'd be nervous about talking on the air, but I'm sure I'd get used to it pretty quickly.
I told her I wouldn't be able to think of it until I'm graduated which she understood, but she said I'd be paid (via ads during the show, which we'd choose to endorse) and it could be a way for me to make money and still retain my personal integrity of doing something good for the world (putting the issues out there). So yeah, I'm really considering it now. I know pretty much nothing about radio broadcasting, but I'm sure I'd learn quickly and I like to talk about political issues and it's going to be a small audience initially, so hell... why not? I miss working with her and being on top of every political issue going on.
We'll see of course. I'm going to tune into the show she's working on right now next week, since she'll have an Iraq war veteran talking about his experiences and such. Should be interesting. And yeah... I'm still looking for an ordinary job otherwise, with no luck.
Oh but, my sunburn is coming along well, although my nose and forehead are peeling. Lame because I never peel, but not too bad because it's a very, very thin layer of skin so it's hardly noticeable. My scalp is still red though. Blasted sun! I should start wearing hats or something when I go to outdoor summer festivals. :(