Difficulties with work.
I am dreading going to work a little bit this morning.
I'm on this crazy detox diet and not getting all the NUTRIENTS that I probably need, and it's making me all weak/energyless and I think it's affecting my mental capacity. I'm feeling a lot stupider than usual these days (the less-than-required amount of sleep isn't helping) and not at all confident in my abilities as Mr. Manager, and I keep screwing up at work in not-totally-minor ways, and every time I make a significant mistake I just think the big manager must be totally rethinking her decision in overlooking my total lack of experience and hiring me anyway.
I know I just have to *be confident* and *do better*!, but it's so haaard to stop the cycling thoughts of, "Oh I'm so bad at this" "Oh everybody thinks I'm so bad at this" "She shouldn't have hired me" "I'm not going to be able to keep up this job" etc. that is set off every time I do something stupid or demonstrate ineptitude (ineptness?).
But I think this is probably just the "first few weeks of a job" thing, where you're still trying to get the hang of it but you feel you're expected to be good at it already. Maaaybe it'll be okay.
I'm on this crazy detox diet and not getting all the NUTRIENTS that I probably need, and it's making me all weak/energyless and I think it's affecting my mental capacity. I'm feeling a lot stupider than usual these days (the less-than-required amount of sleep isn't helping) and not at all confident in my abilities as Mr. Manager, and I keep screwing up at work in not-totally-minor ways, and every time I make a significant mistake I just think the big manager must be totally rethinking her decision in overlooking my total lack of experience and hiring me anyway.
I know I just have to *be confident* and *do better*!, but it's so haaard to stop the cycling thoughts of, "Oh I'm so bad at this" "Oh everybody thinks I'm so bad at this" "She shouldn't have hired me" "I'm not going to be able to keep up this job" etc. that is set off every time I do something stupid or demonstrate ineptitude (ineptness?).
But I think this is probably just the "first few weeks of a job" thing, where you're still trying to get the hang of it but you feel you're expected to be good at it already. Maaaybe it'll be okay.