[Notice]: Please Read
I don't know whether because I feel like shit I have to post this (don't ask), but nontheless, I feel this needs to be addressed before it gets any worse.
I've noticed there's been a lack of communication again and thus, a result of inactivity. I know school, jobs, and other real life factors are on all of our heads more often than internet ever is. Homework, hours at work, anything that can keep us from roleplaying has influenced a lot of us lately in our decisions. I've banned myself from this roleplay for a good week or two and as a result, I see less activity.
Personally, I'm very insecure about how I roleplay Allen Walker. I feel as though I've made him a desperate, clingy, schoolgirl out for affection and attention and I know that's not how he behaves, anime, manga, or otherwise. Allen is, let's face it, somewhat of a cliche character, but he is by no means pining after people all the time. I feel I've done that too often and it needs to stop. I personally am not sure what I want out of this RP anymore. I know I do, at least, want some people's cooperation on this matter.
Some of you have disappeared without notice. I'm not asking to know every detail of your lives, whether you're at school, at an expo/con, or otherwise. I do want to know, however, if you will be returning and when you can be expected to return. I do wish to reiterate that I will still love you all as friends even if you decide to quit the RPG here and even over MSN IM. I would like to know if you will be on MSN at times for just regular chitchat because sometimes even I don't wish to RP and just really want to talk. I know I'm difficult to talk to, especially since I use one word responses all the time and don't sound interested, but believe me, I am. I may have something going on and it's hard to talk; rest assured, I'll be sure to tell you of any event or situation that may impede my abilities to communicate with you all concerning RP, RL, IL, or anything else you wish to talk about.
That being said, I will admit that I've felt - at one point or another - that I should quit this RP. I know I've said that drama can't occur with just one person in general, that it takes two or more to get that rolling, but I feel that every moment I'm involved with any of you in the main RP, drama always gets stirred up. If I'm wrong, correct me however you wish, but I wanted to express my feelings on the matter.
There also seem to be some issues circling around what happens on MSN IM and how they may or may not relate to this main RP. I know some of that is my fault, since I love exploring other pairings and situations outside of this main RP and forget many times to tell people when I want it part of the main RPG and when it's just for my personal reference. I know it may sound selfish to want to RP so much on the side and not focus on a big RPG like this and you can tell me so.
Being the community moderator (I feel), I wanted to share this with you. You don't have to reply with long comments explaining yourselves for any reason; I'm not doing this to point fingers at anyone. You don't have to reply with short comments, saying you agree or disagree, because I'm not asking you to. I'm not telling you to tell me that my characterization is good or bad; that's not the point of this.
I do wish, however, that you will tell me your feelings on this matter, however long or short your comments range, if you can.
Thank you.
I've noticed there's been a lack of communication again and thus, a result of inactivity. I know school, jobs, and other real life factors are on all of our heads more often than internet ever is. Homework, hours at work, anything that can keep us from roleplaying has influenced a lot of us lately in our decisions. I've banned myself from this roleplay for a good week or two and as a result, I see less activity.
Personally, I'm very insecure about how I roleplay Allen Walker. I feel as though I've made him a desperate, clingy, schoolgirl out for affection and attention and I know that's not how he behaves, anime, manga, or otherwise. Allen is, let's face it, somewhat of a cliche character, but he is by no means pining after people all the time. I feel I've done that too often and it needs to stop. I personally am not sure what I want out of this RP anymore. I know I do, at least, want some people's cooperation on this matter.
Some of you have disappeared without notice. I'm not asking to know every detail of your lives, whether you're at school, at an expo/con, or otherwise. I do want to know, however, if you will be returning and when you can be expected to return. I do wish to reiterate that I will still love you all as friends even if you decide to quit the RPG here and even over MSN IM. I would like to know if you will be on MSN at times for just regular chitchat because sometimes even I don't wish to RP and just really want to talk. I know I'm difficult to talk to, especially since I use one word responses all the time and don't sound interested, but believe me, I am. I may have something going on and it's hard to talk; rest assured, I'll be sure to tell you of any event or situation that may impede my abilities to communicate with you all concerning RP, RL, IL, or anything else you wish to talk about.
That being said, I will admit that I've felt - at one point or another - that I should quit this RP. I know I've said that drama can't occur with just one person in general, that it takes two or more to get that rolling, but I feel that every moment I'm involved with any of you in the main RP, drama always gets stirred up. If I'm wrong, correct me however you wish, but I wanted to express my feelings on the matter.
There also seem to be some issues circling around what happens on MSN IM and how they may or may not relate to this main RP. I know some of that is my fault, since I love exploring other pairings and situations outside of this main RP and forget many times to tell people when I want it part of the main RPG and when it's just for my personal reference. I know it may sound selfish to want to RP so much on the side and not focus on a big RPG like this and you can tell me so.
Being the community moderator (I feel), I wanted to share this with you. You don't have to reply with long comments explaining yourselves for any reason; I'm not doing this to point fingers at anyone. You don't have to reply with short comments, saying you agree or disagree, because I'm not asking you to. I'm not telling you to tell me that my characterization is good or bad; that's not the point of this.
I do wish, however, that you will tell me your feelings on this matter, however long or short your comments range, if you can.
Thank you.