Upset
[*Forgot to place on private*]
I don't believe I have a right to be as upset as I feel right now... but it comes down to trust for me. I trust him and always have. I trust him with my heart, my life... so I don't believe I have a right to be jealous that his time isn't spent with me. I try to be around as much as I can, all the time. I don't feel I have a right to be close to tears over this because I do love him. More than anything, even the war. Nothing can make me discard how much I feel for him. I don't doubt him.
So why do I feel so upset? It shouldn't matter. I'm not the only thing in his life. I'm not the only priority he has on his mind. Yet...
Why does such a small thing make me want to let loose and weep? Surely not because I feel left behind...? Or could it be that...
I don't believe I have a right to be as upset as I feel right now... but it comes down to trust for me. I trust him and always have. I trust him with my heart, my life... so I don't believe I have a right to be jealous that his time isn't spent with me. I try to be around as much as I can, all the time. I don't feel I have a right to be close to tears over this because I do love him. More than anything, even the war. Nothing can make me discard how much I feel for him. I don't doubt him.
So why do I feel so upset? It shouldn't matter. I'm not the only thing in his life. I'm not the only priority he has on his mind. Yet...
Why does such a small thing make me want to let loose and weep? Surely not because I feel left behind...? Or could it be that...