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sometimes there is this moment where i just look around and realize that it's all so temporary.
that is at once the most reassuring and terrifying thing.
there is a sense of clarity tinged simultaneously with this wistful sadness and joy.
i dread the idea that the people i love and cherish now may move so quickly away from me.
yet i am always excited to find out what may be next, wating just ahead of in time
i would never choose to keep things constant for the duration because change is usually such a blessing, even in disguise
scary and overwhelming, fresh and welcome
still..... i often so clearly understand many of the ways i've been blessed such that it wounds me to realize that they too may pass
people and things move in and out of life with purpose.
i can look back at my short existance and know this to be true
but no one ever said it gets easier to handle
when someone you love leaves
when something you cherish fades or breaks beyond repair
when you are forced to return again and again to your resolve, inner strength, faith...
it may become easier to bear mentally due to life experience
but i'm not sure anyone can ever say it's easier on the heart or soul
making big decisions
questioning, wondering, worrying
being so hopeful knowing that it can all crash to the ground
and building out of ruins again and again
what interesting things we, as individuals living within society, must face everday.
most we do unknowingly
unwittingly moving about
but once in a while i stop
and i am happy
and i am sad
i am scared
i am hopeful
i am weary
i am inspired
i am lonely
i am crowded
i am in doubt
i am in love
i am
that is at once the most reassuring and terrifying thing.
there is a sense of clarity tinged simultaneously with this wistful sadness and joy.
i dread the idea that the people i love and cherish now may move so quickly away from me.
yet i am always excited to find out what may be next, wating just ahead of in time
i would never choose to keep things constant for the duration because change is usually such a blessing, even in disguise
scary and overwhelming, fresh and welcome
still..... i often so clearly understand many of the ways i've been blessed such that it wounds me to realize that they too may pass
people and things move in and out of life with purpose.
i can look back at my short existance and know this to be true
but no one ever said it gets easier to handle
when someone you love leaves
when something you cherish fades or breaks beyond repair
when you are forced to return again and again to your resolve, inner strength, faith...
it may become easier to bear mentally due to life experience
but i'm not sure anyone can ever say it's easier on the heart or soul
making big decisions
questioning, wondering, worrying
being so hopeful knowing that it can all crash to the ground
and building out of ruins again and again
what interesting things we, as individuals living within society, must face everday.
most we do unknowingly
unwittingly moving about
but once in a while i stop
and i am happy
and i am sad
i am scared
i am hopeful
i am weary
i am inspired
i am lonely
i am crowded
i am in doubt
i am in love
i am