hey hey
And here I am.... a couple months later :)
I am now graduated. had my senior recital. bar crawl. chorale picnic. sang at recognition ceremonies. missed an AWEsome concert b/c I threw my back out (?!?) but of course was better in time for bar crawl. of course....
have done a lot of financial dancing and continue to do so. currently looking for work in my new city of choice; Syracuse. living in my new place. a house on Ostrom Ave. great location i'm steadily learning. if only people had cleaned before they moved out. i did a lot of cleaning today, but should be done with all the main stuff by tomorrow. at least then it'll be livable. it was/is pretty bad... but the girls seem nice so i can be lenient. besides i have the entire summer to find a good bar and forgive them. mwahaha
so i'm sitting/laying on my floor since i don't have a desk yet. screw that, i'm just happy to have a real online connection. seriously. in the meantime i've been steadily memorizing the thruway and 81. Not bad at all really. thankfully the dream machine passed inspection but i smell gas again and that can't be good.
aside from furniture-- before furniture - i seriously need a curtain on this far window. i mean, damn, people are gonna know my whole business [up in here]. on the sweeter side i live less than a block from a beautiful rose garden and a nicely manicured park. oh how sweet will my little runs be now? not to mention just chilling on the stone benches by the fountain. oh yeh, you read it right.
i'm in a bit of a limbo, called unemployment, but otherwise things are green. and i'm going to be a mall whore tomorrow and see what kind of apps i can massacre. *exuding calmness [albeit forced}* it'll be fine
i've added a stability ball to the pilates and short runs. it's a nice variety and the ball kicks for crunches. very very niiiice. i'm going to miss rugby SO much. it's not even funny. i'm going to have to start kicking my own ass or something....
got a haircut today. it's actually pretty jammin' for me walking in and saying 'i want to be able to pull it back. yeh. so have some fun.' haha definitely lighter, and given the consistant humidities, a very good thing.
for all it's (house) bohemian style, at present, i like it here. makes me a bit nervous knowing i'm in the city, like at home when i would watch the news and all the murders and attacks and whatnot were all in syracuse and... oh wait... i'm here now. damn. but at the same time it's going to be awesome having so much around to do. i'm pretty psyched considering my piss poor accounts. either way, it's going to a lot of fun.
officially off the market. yeh. who knew? nope. me either. but he kicks ass....and could seriously kick some ass (yes, i did stay for the gun show. thanks) i'm not a gusher. it's just really good. probably one of the healthiest situations i've been in, in a long long time. possibly ever. well, get used to seeing remnants of happiness in this rant b/c i'm knowing some sort of glory in the we-unit. yeh. who knew? nope. me either. and yet, there it is. what a sweet piece of fruit to fall from the tree. nice littlle tap to the brain. "wake up babe. are you in or not? b/c this shit is for real and other beings, enter the scar:red heart, are beginning to take serious notice."
he's just great. that 'same page', 'he gets it', 'how can this be so good' bullshit that the yuppies plug... is now playing in my front yard. and i'm buying every fucking word. why? for a hundred reasons which culminate in the miracle of any two people's lives (entire entities) being able to blend in any way, especially long enough to be anything more than decent friends. do you know how many tiny moments have to be aligned (fit) b/t two beings to connect enough to actually even want to date, and then exclusively, and for it to actually be fun and healthy(honest)..... a lot. i didn't think about it when it was happening, lest i jinx something. i had, however, thought about it a bunch of times prior. and here i am
floating in the 'L' word
that dangerous sort of adrenaline rush you should certainly take, only on occasion when the situation is good. the drug that'll fly you higher than life or leave you wasted and dry (subnatural level)
serious stuff but mix in some sugar and the spoonful goes down
down
down into the bloodstream
it'll knock you senseless but is also the potentially best trip out there
i had forgotten. forced myself to forget it existed. it's not a party ride. no, not this stuff.
much too real for that
much better, bolder, brighter. and if you find a solid dealer the 'L' train was never more on time.
got lucky, got blessed, got smart. appreciation could not begin to cover it.
i suppose i ought to try out sleep here. first night in the house. and alone at that. no biggie. i'm getting used to the sounds and smells gradually.
aqua teen hunger force
hot chocolate gone cold
a song for the asking
good night
I am now graduated. had my senior recital. bar crawl. chorale picnic. sang at recognition ceremonies. missed an AWEsome concert b/c I threw my back out (?!?) but of course was better in time for bar crawl. of course....
have done a lot of financial dancing and continue to do so. currently looking for work in my new city of choice; Syracuse. living in my new place. a house on Ostrom Ave. great location i'm steadily learning. if only people had cleaned before they moved out. i did a lot of cleaning today, but should be done with all the main stuff by tomorrow. at least then it'll be livable. it was/is pretty bad... but the girls seem nice so i can be lenient. besides i have the entire summer to find a good bar and forgive them. mwahaha
so i'm sitting/laying on my floor since i don't have a desk yet. screw that, i'm just happy to have a real online connection. seriously. in the meantime i've been steadily memorizing the thruway and 81. Not bad at all really. thankfully the dream machine passed inspection but i smell gas again and that can't be good.
aside from furniture-- before furniture - i seriously need a curtain on this far window. i mean, damn, people are gonna know my whole business [up in here]. on the sweeter side i live less than a block from a beautiful rose garden and a nicely manicured park. oh how sweet will my little runs be now? not to mention just chilling on the stone benches by the fountain. oh yeh, you read it right.
i'm in a bit of a limbo, called unemployment, but otherwise things are green. and i'm going to be a mall whore tomorrow and see what kind of apps i can massacre. *exuding calmness [albeit forced}* it'll be fine
i've added a stability ball to the pilates and short runs. it's a nice variety and the ball kicks for crunches. very very niiiice. i'm going to miss rugby SO much. it's not even funny. i'm going to have to start kicking my own ass or something....
got a haircut today. it's actually pretty jammin' for me walking in and saying 'i want to be able to pull it back. yeh. so have some fun.' haha definitely lighter, and given the consistant humidities, a very good thing.
for all it's (house) bohemian style, at present, i like it here. makes me a bit nervous knowing i'm in the city, like at home when i would watch the news and all the murders and attacks and whatnot were all in syracuse and... oh wait... i'm here now. damn. but at the same time it's going to be awesome having so much around to do. i'm pretty psyched considering my piss poor accounts. either way, it's going to a lot of fun.
officially off the market. yeh. who knew? nope. me either. but he kicks ass....and could seriously kick some ass (yes, i did stay for the gun show. thanks) i'm not a gusher. it's just really good. probably one of the healthiest situations i've been in, in a long long time. possibly ever. well, get used to seeing remnants of happiness in this rant b/c i'm knowing some sort of glory in the we-unit. yeh. who knew? nope. me either. and yet, there it is. what a sweet piece of fruit to fall from the tree. nice littlle tap to the brain. "wake up babe. are you in or not? b/c this shit is for real and other beings, enter the scar:red heart, are beginning to take serious notice."
he's just great. that 'same page', 'he gets it', 'how can this be so good' bullshit that the yuppies plug... is now playing in my front yard. and i'm buying every fucking word. why? for a hundred reasons which culminate in the miracle of any two people's lives (entire entities) being able to blend in any way, especially long enough to be anything more than decent friends. do you know how many tiny moments have to be aligned (fit) b/t two beings to connect enough to actually even want to date, and then exclusively, and for it to actually be fun and healthy(honest)..... a lot. i didn't think about it when it was happening, lest i jinx something. i had, however, thought about it a bunch of times prior. and here i am
floating in the 'L' word
that dangerous sort of adrenaline rush you should certainly take, only on occasion when the situation is good. the drug that'll fly you higher than life or leave you wasted and dry (subnatural level)
serious stuff but mix in some sugar and the spoonful goes down
down
down into the bloodstream
it'll knock you senseless but is also the potentially best trip out there
i had forgotten. forced myself to forget it existed. it's not a party ride. no, not this stuff.
much too real for that
much better, bolder, brighter. and if you find a solid dealer the 'L' train was never more on time.
got lucky, got blessed, got smart. appreciation could not begin to cover it.
i suppose i ought to try out sleep here. first night in the house. and alone at that. no biggie. i'm getting used to the sounds and smells gradually.
aqua teen hunger force
hot chocolate gone cold
a song for the asking
good night