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Just hasnt been my week. make that my past few weeks.School to me is a place of torture. All day i get told to do by priests, nuns, and people without teaching credentials. For 7 hours a day they bullshit me..acting like they know what they are doing. If they didnt have those little books with all the fuckin anwsers in them then even they would be lost. I didnt talk much today. Only to Tori and Jessica and Ed. Today i just watched people. Watched them laugh..be happy..spend their money...spoiled little bastards. The people at my school are a joke. They are fake. They live on their parents name. my mom does this and this and makes this much..oh yeah my dad does this and he makes more...he bought me this and that. I would love for a week to put the shit i have on my shoulders onto their shoulders. All the fucked up probelms. The mood swings. the depression.The constant bullshit i am fed. I would love to watched their legs grow weak and when they collapsed i would laugh and then end their life.The weak dont make it in this world. There are some real people at st joes. You notice them because they are the ones wearing the battle scars. You may not see them physically..but you know they are there..Under their mask. They too wear a mask so society can handle them. If they didnt..all hell would break loose. Yesterday was lame. best part was seeing jessica. Today was a fucking joke. I saw jessica for a few hours and that was nice. School was bullshit. Homelife was bullshit. i was thinking today. im glad i am the way i am. i like beign the quiet shy kid who sits in the back of the classroom. Never smile. never talk. people are affraid of you. The teachers are affraid to call on you because you might whip out a pistol and shoot them in the face. You reply with one word anwsers. Yes. No. Jesus Christ this weekend needs to go better. I need something to go my way. please...