Jan 16, 2007 13:16
I was finding myself in a rather painful situation and it just hit me. Karma, my friend, I had been waiting for this one for a long time. Took you long enough :)
Knowing what happened the first time around, I feel less worried about my current predicament. I am not what you would call a religious person. Me religious education was very open at home, and over the years I have chosen the parts that fit me best from everything I have gotten to know. It's a practice that doesn't sit well with many, but it works for me. I am at peace, even if I sometimes wonder if I wouldn't be happier being different, believing something else, etc. I don't know if I'm just still growing up and at some point this will stop being what I do, maybe I am just too young to even be done knowing myself. In any case, life has been a journey of self discovery, of uncertainties and doubts, for as long as I've been alive.
Even though it's hard, not being certain of anything has it's perks. It has allowed me to see and try things that I wouldn't have been able to if I was set in my ways. I have wandered and found joy and tears in equals amounts in different places, with different people. Up to now, my strongest belief is that karma exists. I live knowing that all good comes back, all bad comes back. It's just the way the ebb flows for me.
Today is a new day. Tomorrow it will be a new day. There's always a new start waiting around the corner. I am everything I am, good and bad. Wherever I go, all that I am will go with me. I will try to keep myself in balance, but I know there's just too much in life to be able to do so. Karma will come to me.
Karma has come.
I hope you have forgiven me, Memo.
flesh-life