...woah! *does happy dance of JOY*
Which one of you crazy kids went bonkers and got me a paid account, eh? That's absolutely AWESOME! I'm pretty much speechless, thank you so very much to whoever did it! Weee! It's really great, I'm prancing willy nilly because... well, thank you! It was a really awesome present! If I knew who it was, I could properly thank you ;)
I went out today with one of my best friends. We've known each other for almost 10 years now, and sadly we've grown distant over the last year. It's as much my fault as hers, I suppose. She's got a boyfriend I hate (well, the man made a wreck of her this past year, what am I supposed to do? cheer for him?) and so... we've seen less of each other lately. But I'm trying hard to swallow my planet sized ego and pride, because I really care for her and I don't want to gamble her for pride. It's very hard, because I'm goddamn stubborn and lets say there have been... circumstances that made things even more difficult.
I have parted with many friends over the years, for many reasons, though hardly on bad terms, time and space just seem to... take their toll. I rejoice, though, when I see them again, in a way. In other ways I'm just glad I'm not the same person I was back then, and I understand why we had to part ways. But a part of me really misses them. I've been really wistful lately, I miss the old gang. But past is past, and I am grateful for my new gang, too, all my architects-to-be. I'm also having the very known and very hated feeling of anxiety over my career choice. I have no idea if I did right, I just look around and I admire the work of my peers so much, that I really don't know if I'm qualified to be there with them. Lol, I guess it's just my head, since I look around here, the LJ-gang and wonder exactly the same. To know so many incredible people is really a humbling experience and a prompt to try to do better for myself and for others every day. I hope for the best, for everyone around me, and for me, because there is so much effort and energy and love poured into everything I see happening out there that really, how could we not make a better world?
I have faith in you all, and I cherish every word and every thought you have shared with me, those present and those parted. I hope we make it.
/gets off the soapbox and hugs flist
I went out today with one of my best friends. We've known each other for almost 10 years now, and sadly we've grown distant over the last year. It's as much my fault as hers, I suppose. She's got a boyfriend I hate (well, the man made a wreck of her this past year, what am I supposed to do? cheer for him?) and so... we've seen less of each other lately. But I'm trying hard to swallow my planet sized ego and pride, because I really care for her and I don't want to gamble her for pride. It's very hard, because I'm goddamn stubborn and lets say there have been... circumstances that made things even more difficult.
I have parted with many friends over the years, for many reasons, though hardly on bad terms, time and space just seem to... take their toll. I rejoice, though, when I see them again, in a way. In other ways I'm just glad I'm not the same person I was back then, and I understand why we had to part ways. But a part of me really misses them. I've been really wistful lately, I miss the old gang. But past is past, and I am grateful for my new gang, too, all my architects-to-be. I'm also having the very known and very hated feeling of anxiety over my career choice. I have no idea if I did right, I just look around and I admire the work of my peers so much, that I really don't know if I'm qualified to be there with them. Lol, I guess it's just my head, since I look around here, the LJ-gang and wonder exactly the same. To know so many incredible people is really a humbling experience and a prompt to try to do better for myself and for others every day. I hope for the best, for everyone around me, and for me, because there is so much effort and energy and love poured into everything I see happening out there that really, how could we not make a better world?
I have faith in you all, and I cherish every word and every thought you have shared with me, those present and those parted. I hope we make it.
/gets off the soapbox and hugs flist