Not just once.. not just twice...
Been having a severe case of writer's block. I am enjoying comics immensely, probably more than ever before, as I had never experienced the issue-by-issue reading. It was always trades for me, or bunches of issues that my brother's had bought... so now I get to wait month by month to check out what crazy awesome thing Bruce will be doing, reading previews and being super excited for the things in months to come, and reading boards and blogs about theories of current canon, discussing them with friends... it's fun!
And yet.. no muses to write. I'm like... perhaps spending all my ficcing energy on pondering canon? no idea. So anyway. I owe people birthday fics and feedback -what else is new- and I'm in a semi lethargic fandom stage... despite being really involved with the source material and lurking like crazy everywhere. So. You know. Likely, I'm in your journal, lurking and enjoying your stories! I'm sorry I'm not as verbal as I can be.
Also, thanks for everyone who nominated me for the WFAs, I'm honored! I didn't really write much last year, so I'm glad some stories were memorable :)
RL has been intense. I went to Dallas with vigilante_wake and taro_twist and saw the revival of the It's a Bird, It's a Plane musical. IT WAS FANTASTIC. I had tons of fun with the girls, as usual, we stayed at a guesthouse and it was crazy, but... despite the ups and downs -like the crazy transportation issues and the weird guests at the guesthouse- in the end it's just adventures to tell when we come back :)
Then I worked for a week, mostly trying to get my brother's house ready before he married. Then my brother married. It was very sweet :3 Thennnn my godparents stayed over for a week in my house, and I tried to see them as much as possible, along with my cousin and her husband and my niece.
Then my great uncle died. He's had cancer for a long time, and they had stopped treating him by the end of last year. We didn't see him before the end -these are my uncles that live in California- and my dad was very upset. I am sad. I don't really know how to feel, given how unreal it feels when someone so far away dies. It's like.. I could pretend he's not dead, that he's not sick, that he's alive and well. I know it's a lie, but...
Then my brother came back from his honey moon, and my godparents left. And now my dad has gone with his sisters and a brother to California to see my great aunt and his cousins. And my brother's house is still having kinks I need to help with -hopefully today's was the last?- and I'm working to fix the backyard of our old house/soon to be my dad's new office... which continues to be unpaid work. So. I'm a bit broke, and will be for the foreseen future, though.. I don't care too much right now? my parents give me pocket money in exchange for working for them :P I won't stress over this.
So.. this is the first week I have actually sit down and work in.. almost a month. But I haven't done much as.. I'm. Fairly depressed? Not really sure why. Well, I guess a bunch of things. I miss my brother -which is dumbbb but true- and I feel kind of useless. I'm not so much depressed in the 'entertaining morbid thoughts' way as in the 'feeling dissociated from my own body' way. I'm sleepy and tired all the time. I know it will go away, though, it's just a phase.
Work will pick up or I'll find a job if I grow desperate. My arm is still hurting but it doesn't hurt so bad if I just stay away from the PC and use the notebook, so you know. It's a dumb thing. I'm going to acupuncture sessions and will start reflexology sessions and yoga classes because I'm tired of being in pain, and I'm sure that will help. The acupuncture is kind of.. not my thing and I'm not sure it works at all, but after the acupuncture I really like massage I get X) so I keep going. Hohoho!
I feel like a puppy or a kitten who just wants to cuddle and sleep. CUDDLE AND SLEEP, CUDDLE AND SLEEP. I'm loving comics so much right now it's ridiculous. I'm very excited about Batman Inc. and Bruce Wayne: The Road Home. I feel like they are being tailor made for me, it just gives me such glee to read them! insane plots and crazy symbolism and amazing adventures and everyone is made of love. And for every book I drop -I dropped Superman, JLA and Power Girl, for example- something else crops up -Time Masters and the upcoming GL book by Tomasi and the new Batman books- so it all evens out. I also bought a load of books in Dallas so I have plenty of non-comics to read, despite telling myself I could not buy any books until I finished the ones I bought in my last spree... of course I never listen to myself! what do I know about books? there's never enough books! :D
So. That's life. Kinda just watching it go right now, watching it go while reading X)
And yet.. no muses to write. I'm like... perhaps spending all my ficcing energy on pondering canon? no idea. So anyway. I owe people birthday fics and feedback -what else is new- and I'm in a semi lethargic fandom stage... despite being really involved with the source material and lurking like crazy everywhere. So. You know. Likely, I'm in your journal, lurking and enjoying your stories! I'm sorry I'm not as verbal as I can be.
Also, thanks for everyone who nominated me for the WFAs, I'm honored! I didn't really write much last year, so I'm glad some stories were memorable :)
RL has been intense. I went to Dallas with vigilante_wake and taro_twist and saw the revival of the It's a Bird, It's a Plane musical. IT WAS FANTASTIC. I had tons of fun with the girls, as usual, we stayed at a guesthouse and it was crazy, but... despite the ups and downs -like the crazy transportation issues and the weird guests at the guesthouse- in the end it's just adventures to tell when we come back :)
Then I worked for a week, mostly trying to get my brother's house ready before he married. Then my brother married. It was very sweet :3 Thennnn my godparents stayed over for a week in my house, and I tried to see them as much as possible, along with my cousin and her husband and my niece.
Then my great uncle died. He's had cancer for a long time, and they had stopped treating him by the end of last year. We didn't see him before the end -these are my uncles that live in California- and my dad was very upset. I am sad. I don't really know how to feel, given how unreal it feels when someone so far away dies. It's like.. I could pretend he's not dead, that he's not sick, that he's alive and well. I know it's a lie, but...
Then my brother came back from his honey moon, and my godparents left. And now my dad has gone with his sisters and a brother to California to see my great aunt and his cousins. And my brother's house is still having kinks I need to help with -hopefully today's was the last?- and I'm working to fix the backyard of our old house/soon to be my dad's new office... which continues to be unpaid work. So. I'm a bit broke, and will be for the foreseen future, though.. I don't care too much right now? my parents give me pocket money in exchange for working for them :P I won't stress over this.
So.. this is the first week I have actually sit down and work in.. almost a month. But I haven't done much as.. I'm. Fairly depressed? Not really sure why. Well, I guess a bunch of things. I miss my brother -which is dumbbb but true- and I feel kind of useless. I'm not so much depressed in the 'entertaining morbid thoughts' way as in the 'feeling dissociated from my own body' way. I'm sleepy and tired all the time. I know it will go away, though, it's just a phase.
Work will pick up or I'll find a job if I grow desperate. My arm is still hurting but it doesn't hurt so bad if I just stay away from the PC and use the notebook, so you know. It's a dumb thing. I'm going to acupuncture sessions and will start reflexology sessions and yoga classes because I'm tired of being in pain, and I'm sure that will help. The acupuncture is kind of.. not my thing and I'm not sure it works at all, but after the acupuncture I really like massage I get X) so I keep going. Hohoho!
I feel like a puppy or a kitten who just wants to cuddle and sleep. CUDDLE AND SLEEP, CUDDLE AND SLEEP. I'm loving comics so much right now it's ridiculous. I'm very excited about Batman Inc. and Bruce Wayne: The Road Home. I feel like they are being tailor made for me, it just gives me such glee to read them! insane plots and crazy symbolism and amazing adventures and everyone is made of love. And for every book I drop -I dropped Superman, JLA and Power Girl, for example- something else crops up -Time Masters and the upcoming GL book by Tomasi and the new Batman books- so it all evens out. I also bought a load of books in Dallas so I have plenty of non-comics to read, despite telling myself I could not buy any books until I finished the ones I bought in my last spree... of course I never listen to myself! what do I know about books? there's never enough books! :D
So. That's life. Kinda just watching it go right now, watching it go while reading X)