wow, its been just over a year here.
Welll i cant really believe im resorting to this but i dont really know what to do. Im very alone right now. I can really feel the open space in my dorm room right now. I dont feel I should be alone to do this. I tried cuddling up with a blanket and sleeping, but I still felt the space between me and the sheets. Its like my insides are hollow and I hate this feeling. I feel like we broke up. I feel like its over. Through all this I knows shes the one for me. I know that if she does decide after this to not come back, Im going to have to go get her. She says that things will turn out how they should, and that she loves more than anything and that she really doubts that there will be anyone to stir her from me. That is to much chance for her to leave. That girl is what drives me. I know i may not say it sometimes, and I know that the distance is a bitch. But damnit, that girl is who I love. She's the one for me more than anyone else. I've never been so certain about anything else in my life. I love that girl and Im certain. I would be elated to spend the rest of my life with the girl. I hope that she see's this before she falls for anyone else. I'm looking at the posts before this and I just remember how happy I was to know that finally that girl was mine. FINALLY. I hope this storm blows by and that in a month or so I can feel that again. The relief that I know that she loves me and just me and that There is nobody else for her. I will cry for hours when it happens. Once thiss is all over and shes back in my arms. Im just so terriffied that this is it. That I will never feel her holding me again. That she's never going to say I love you again, the words that she wrote on my hand. I could scream. I need this girl. She's in me so deep. I just hope that she hears these words. I hope that I really am everything she wants. I hope she hasnt found someone already. Please o please o please. If there is some being out there with control over this sort of thing, please. Just send hr back my way after all this. Please bring her back to my arms. Please.