#115: Looking Back
They say,
it's always darkness before the dawn
it always rain the hardest on those who deserve the sun
I want to believe that happiness might at least be possible to those prone to sadness.
For the past 12 months, I can say that I grew a lot. Like many, there's inevitable happiness and sadness over the year. Mistakes were made and well, miracles formed.
I initially typed paragraphs out, starting with the good parts of 2013 but I got lazy, as usual, so here's a few summarising (and vague, my fav) statements about this year:
1. I can be strong if I allow myself to be.
2. Don't ever take things for granted, or be complacent.
3. Sometimes, things that don't seem to be my liking in the past may just be my type now, i.e. floral dresses
4. The future may be scary but I can't keep running back to the past because it's familiar. It is tempting yes, but a mistake too.
5. Don't wear your heart on your sleeve for its a vulnerability.
6. Use your head, not your heart. More often than not, your heart is wrong.
7. It is okay to be lost. Better to be lost now and sure for the next few decades than to be sure now and lost in mid-life.
In 2014, I want to:
1. Join a marathon (don't judge)
2. Be fitter.
3. Be more confident.
4. Cherish friends and family.
5. Remove toxic people in life and keep those that provide me with nothing but positivity.
6. Finally, be happy.
as a personal note-to-self:
'Live for the life you always wanted but were too scared to pursue.
Live for every person who has ever loved you, for the people who have come before you so that you may be here today.
Live for the fire that burns in your soul, that tells you: keep going, you’re almost there, just a little farther.
Because this is your life, sing a siren song to capture your attention and steer away from the rocks, to guide you back home.'