i have to find the perfect music. although this is not it, it will do. how is it that i settle for so much less? how is it that i just go with the flow trying my best to question every thought and action, but i just bite my tongue and float on? we're all so wrong. i'm in so much need right now. so turned on, not sexually, but i don't know how to ( Read more... )

i feel really high on life right now. even though about an hour ago i was ready to go to bed. it's funny how we don't get over issues. they're so petty and it makes me laugh inside because sometimes we look so foolish. nichole taught me the motto 'who cares?'. because honestly, who does? we shouldn't care about insignificant things. we let them ( Read more... )

i just want to blast the radio and fly away to the moon. i need to escape because i'm getting to the point where i can't take it anymore. everyone is not who they say they are. you're not unique. no you're notso i'm angry at the world because when you expect things, all you receive in return is disappointment. especially from people. they're not ( Read more... )

so i've been gone. in and out of my mind. and i came upon some new ideas. and some old ones as well. i'm still alone. not quite lonely but alone. i love being around very energetic people that bring out the flirty side of me. it sort of lets me come out of myself and to just be. i'm so in my shell that i miss a lot of things. i miss living ( Read more... )

it's funny how hard we try to pass time. i don't know what to say to some of the things that have been said to me. i don't know how to be anymore because everyone's trying to change me. i was in a car accident and i was actually happy about it as sickly as that sounds. it was something new; sort of like a fresh start over. my friend wants me to ( Read more... )

if i could have the world. it would be here by now. but you can't wish for things that big because sometimes fear sneaks up behind you and scares you away from your hopes and dreams. so i hide under covers and hope one day i'll come out. that's the only hope fear allows me to have.

so why can i not say goodbye?

maybe i'm the crazy one.

you remind me of a story i read the other day:
how you crave love and you search for someone, but in the end it ends up killing you.

and plans fail.

it's funny the things we do when we're 18..

how about lying, and fighting, and sleeping in each other's minds..
stripping each other of our purities and feeding our insecurities..

funny how i'm still insecure.
DROWNING IN MY SEA, I'M DROWNING IN MY SEA

i'm not the things you think i am. but then again

i don't know.

i want nothing. that's all.

p.s. i lied. i just want you.

on the surface of everyday ( Read more... )