damn, i haven't updated all summer
man, what a long crazy summer it has been. i'm not even sure where to start. i guess i'll begin at the beginning. i graduated from college. yah me!! the night i wrote my last entry i went out with melissa and michelle and celebrated in typical santa barbara fashion: i got drunk, danced a bit, then found a random boy to take home and have sex with. the catch, however, is that i was a virgin, so my typical santa barbara thursday night was anything but for me. that was kind of a traumatic way to start my summer, but as a i discovered, it was only a preamble to the downward sprial i have lived for the last 4 months. a week after my last night as a virgin, maureen and I had a tremendous blow out which ultimately led to me making the call to stay in Santa Barbara and not move in with Maureen. at the time i felt like it was the only option for me since i was broke beyond belief and i couldn't put maureen in the position where she was depending on me for rent when i didn't have any savings or another job lined up. so i lived with melissa for the summer, smoked alot of pot, and met a guy. in typical lisa fashion however, the guy was attached and unavailable, although he has turned out to be a close friend and is currently staying with me at my friend tawyna's house. soon he will probably move back to new york where he hails from, but by then i will be gone (more on that later). so i lived with melissa, then out lease was up and she decided to move back home becuase she was broke too and i decided, at the very last minute to move to seattle to be closer to my mom's family. the catch was that i didn't actually have the money to move so i had to stay in santa barbara. oh, and i forgot to mention that i go arrested. i was out partying on a friday night and i drank way too much southern comfort...blacking out occured...then i came to and i was in handcuffs on the sidewalk with four cops standing over me. i spent 18 hours in the drunk tank and when i got out the next morning i swore that i must have just hit rock bottom. this was before my lease was up. then my lease expired and i couldn't afford to leave santa barbara so i couchsurfed at jason's for a week. then his lease expired and the only people i knew in santa barbara still here both lived with their boyfriends and i didn't feel like i could ask either of them to take me, and incidentally, jason, in. the only option i felt like i had with no money and no place to stay was in my car. jason could stay there too, so i wouldn't have to worry about safety, and it would be like an adventure right? um, no. it was definately an experience, but not what i would call a good one overall. it's hard to be optimistic when you are living in your car, and since i didn't know where else to go, that's where i stayed. then jason's aunt said we could stash some stuff at her house and when we were there i realized that i was about 6 blocks from tawnya's house. since i hadn't showered in 2 days and we were hungry, i called her up and she invited us over. once we got there and i told her the whole story she said we could stay with her and her boyfriend as long as we needed to, and that brings me to where i am today. I have to go to court on tuesday for my drunk in public ticket, i'm staying here until next friday, and then it's off to trona for a couple of weeks before i go to seattle. i need to be closer to family. the prospect of free rent sounds wonderful. i can find a job i actually enjoy. and i get a change of pace, which i think i need more than anything else in my life right now. i feel like my life got completely out of control this summer and the only thing i can do to fix it is to start over. a complete change of scenery is in order and i can't wait to see where this all leads.