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[arc_the_lad27]

i keep reading it, her online diary, not knowing if she knows i read it or not. i keep replaying those events from last night in my head... that one little phrase or sentence still lingering in my thoughts consuming all of my time and energy, making me souly focus on that.. that one event. that song is stuck in my head, the one i heard today, the one that made me think of her. that one that relates to this situation so much. i dunno its name... "if i could walk a thousand miles just to see you, just to hold you, i would", it may go differntly but that's the jist. how the fuck am i supposed to know anything if she never tells me anything is wrong. how am i supposed to fix it, how am i supposed to be a human and do those things which humans do, if she won't tell me anything is? over the year, i felt my heart or lack there of, growing colder and colder, the light getting dimmer and dimmer, and finally i kept having these dreams and that all seemed to confrim all that i had been assuming over these past ten or more years, that it would all end. soon. and then they stopped. but those have nothing to do with her at all... not the dreams.
i dunno what i'm saying.

L.o.V.e.