regret and second chance missing chapters update
(Chapter Five)
The street of Tokyo is full of lights. Along the street, there are a lot of Christmas tree had been decorated with ornaments and colourful lights.
Christmas is a big festive here in Tokyo. Therefore in Christmas Eve, the street will be full of life. People will rushing here and there around the stores to do last minutes shopping spree for presents before the clock strike midnight.
For four peoples, Christmas Eve would never be the same again. Usually for them, it would be either doing a performance in Music Station Super Life and then just hang out celebrating Christmas Eve together and Birthday of someone dear for them.
This year it is different. This would be the first time they didn’t feel joyous and want the day just pass by. It is too painful for each of them even though they tried to be strong. Each pulls an act in front of each other to show that they somehow had been recovered a bit but inside their heart, they know it’s a lie and they been living with each other for half of their life, so who are they cheated with….
***
The four of them had agreed with Nino’s and Jun’s plan of going to Aiba’s grave and his family restaurant. When the four of them arrived, as they met first at Sho’s place, each of them brought in a box of present and flowers.
Even though they know the present will not be open, they just feel like bringing him something.
Together, they walked to his resting place. Then they stopped five meters from it.
While in the car before they arrived, Ohno suggested for them to spend some times in front of Aiba’s grave and in the end the four of them had agreed of wanting to say something privately as in some confession.
“I want to go first” Nino said once they stopped.
The other three nodded and watched Nino walked closer to Aiba’s.
(SHIDA said: Starting the coming chapter, it will only be one page chapter (short chapter) as I will be focusing on the confession and the regret part. And each chapter will represent each member. Somehow the story was going far and far from what I had in mind but do support it minna…thank you in advance for reading it…)
(Chapter Fourty-one)
Only sadness...
No matter what kind of ending we create, the heart is a mystery
This is the truth that closes in like darkness
No matter what kind of world we create, tomorrow is yet to be seen
As pure as the untainted lily
While our wishes remain transparent
(Truth~Arashi)
I saw Sho-kun fidgeted, either being clueless or thoughtful on how to start the conversation.
I took the initiative to start the conversation first by asking Sho, what was his reason to be friend with me in the first place.
Sho-kun looked at me abruptly, apparently wasn’t ready by the ambushed question. He looked at me long, searching in my eyes for some answers that he might not need to answer later or maybe searching for some confidence in me to be able to absorb some of the reality to be thrown at me within seconds.
I heard him let out a small sigh.
“Shin, I hope what I’m going to tell you in a moment won’t affect our friendship and your relationship with your current family ties”
I blinked in surprised.
“Current family ties? What are you talking about?”
C’mon Shin, you know what he talked about! Face the truth now…
Sho stares at me with serious expression plastered on his face.
“Shin, you and the guy in the picture are the same person and your real name is Aiba Masaki”
“HUH!!?? What are you talking about?”
So I am Aiba Masaki! Then who is Ryou Shin?
“Shin, let me ask you one thing,” Sho said, in a matter of fact tone.
I don’t want to answer any of your questions, Sho!
“Do you remember any of your past?”
No Sho, I don’t!
“What you did when you were younger?”
I can’t remember what I did when I was younger, damn it!
When is your birthday?
24 July 1982, if you are expecting Aiba’s I can’t remember that…
Who is your best friend?”
You and Momo, but now I need to reconsider you since you lied to me in the first place!
Sho-kun at threw a lot of questions at me at one go. He looked desperate while I was in dazed, thinking about all the answers. I’ve been doing some investigations before this but I still don’t want to accept it since I can’t remember anything. The truth is sure something painful to be deal with.
I read a lot of news posted about Aiba and his accident and now I think I might be connected with it. I faced up and asked Sho for some certainty.
“What happened to this Aiba Masaki?”
“Well he was involved in a brutal accident and cannot be recognized but only after Christmas that I know that he is still alive”
I might not like what the outcome of this conversation…
(SHIDA: Somehow I really made this fic as an angst-ongoing fic aren’t I? hehe… Okay I just want some of you guy’s opinion…Do you WANT a sequel for this fic (but sorry I still can’t write fluff fic)? I will based on the opinion on how many of you want and if I got more than ten I will consider a sequel ne… but the sequel will start after I got a broadband which probably by the end of Nov… SO I leave it up to you…XD again thanks for reading and for ur support minna…)
(Chapter Fourty-six)
“Nino, why are we in hiding in my house?” Aiba asked when he and Nino currently hiding behind a bush, acting like two innocent house breakers.
“Aiba, this is not your house! This is Ryou Shin house!” Nino corrected Aiba, as he looked around to check that they were not attracting anyone and be suspicious.
Aiba, who still haven’t used being called Aiba again stiffened a little when Nino called him by the name . He was also not used of being a stranger to Ryou household where he had been living for almost a year now.
While waiting for Nino to plan his master plan, Aiba thought about what had happened earlier, at the hospital when Nino yelled to him about him knowing Aiba being Aiba again. The way the past made his way to Aiba was still a mystery even for the owner himself. Aiba was still a bit clueless when the rest asked him about how and what did he remembered apart of his name, birth date , how he joined Johnny’s and Arashi and the most important part, did he remembered what really happened the night he was supposed to be his death day.
While in the car earlier, Nino did mention some of his theories about what might really happened. Nino assumed that all of this problems start the night Aiba had been attacked or worst maybe even before the attack as in Nino presumed that Aiba might have a stalker or an obsessive fan that that were willing to go to the extend of hurting the Idol himself.
Nino theory’s sent shivers down to Aiba’s spine along with worries. He never thought he is that popular enough to have an obsessive fan that were willing to do something as hurting him but thinking back about what had happened for the last eight months, everything was possible.
Nino even suggested that the weirdest thing that happened was how Aiba ended up being at Ryou’s household in the first place and how they automatically presumed that Aiba is their son without having no doubt in term of recognizing the difference of attitudes between the two men.
Nino also automatically said that they should also investigate about Shin’s background too (as Nino predicted that Shin might happened to look exactly the same as Aiba and made Aiba become more afraid of finding out the truth more).
If what Nino had predicted and presumed were right, that only mean one thing and that is the explanation. There will be a lot of explanations and fixing the fact need to be done such as the explanation to Ryou’s family about their son (along with the news of their son’s death) which happened 8 months ago. They also need to tell about Shin’s obsession about wanting to be Aiba by attacking Aiba, making him having amnesia, probably switching his personality and acted as Aiba but somehow at the same time he involved in the accident.
Nino also mentioned about Shin might hate his life so bad that he wanted Aiba’s life so badly. Nino might explained a lot more about it if Aiba didn’t stop him as by the time Aiba absorbed all the info, his head had hurt so much as he already started to regret of having his memory back.
Nino sensing his best friend rising tension and doubt and was ignoring him for about five minutes of his talking about the next plan crawl closer to Aiba and went to hug him without hesitation as Aiba stiffened in the warmth of the hug.
“Aiba, I know this is too much for you at the moment but don’t you think 8 months were already a long period of time of suffering is enough for you? You deserve to be happy and to tell you the truth, if Ryou Shin is alive, I might go to the extend of killing him by myself for taking your life away from you and your family and also from us! I know it was wrong to think about revenge and I don’t want you to feel miserable than you already were, therefore I’m willing to let go the ‘killing’ part” Nino joked, trying to lighten up the mood when he feels his shirt covered by soft moisturizer as Aiba was crying silently by the time Nino hold him earlier.
Aiba did laugh at the joke as he smacked lightly Nino head and he whispered “Baka!” while wiping his tears from his face.
“Just want you to know Aiba, whatever happens after this you will always have those who cares a lot for you and will be there for you 24/7! You have me, Jun, Ohno and Sho to help you and all we hope from you is to be strong and be brave and face it like a man ne…”
Aiba looked at Nino and nodded.
“So enough talking and lets take some action now!”
Seeing Aiba blurry face, Nino stand up and dragged Aiba along with him as they made their way to the house garden.
(SHIDA said: Yay I finally got my broadband!! Now I can online regularly after I finished work..XD hmm I got nothing to say at the moment…hehe…as usual thanks in advance for reading and for all your support minna…)
The street of Tokyo is full of lights. Along the street, there are a lot of Christmas tree had been decorated with ornaments and colourful lights.
Christmas is a big festive here in Tokyo. Therefore in Christmas Eve, the street will be full of life. People will rushing here and there around the stores to do last minutes shopping spree for presents before the clock strike midnight.
For four peoples, Christmas Eve would never be the same again. Usually for them, it would be either doing a performance in Music Station Super Life and then just hang out celebrating Christmas Eve together and Birthday of someone dear for them.
This year it is different. This would be the first time they didn’t feel joyous and want the day just pass by. It is too painful for each of them even though they tried to be strong. Each pulls an act in front of each other to show that they somehow had been recovered a bit but inside their heart, they know it’s a lie and they been living with each other for half of their life, so who are they cheated with….
***
The four of them had agreed with Nino’s and Jun’s plan of going to Aiba’s grave and his family restaurant. When the four of them arrived, as they met first at Sho’s place, each of them brought in a box of present and flowers.
Even though they know the present will not be open, they just feel like bringing him something.
Together, they walked to his resting place. Then they stopped five meters from it.
While in the car before they arrived, Ohno suggested for them to spend some times in front of Aiba’s grave and in the end the four of them had agreed of wanting to say something privately as in some confession.
“I want to go first” Nino said once they stopped.
The other three nodded and watched Nino walked closer to Aiba’s.
(SHIDA said: Starting the coming chapter, it will only be one page chapter (short chapter) as I will be focusing on the confession and the regret part. And each chapter will represent each member. Somehow the story was going far and far from what I had in mind but do support it minna…thank you in advance for reading it…)
(Chapter Fourty-one)
Only sadness...
No matter what kind of ending we create, the heart is a mystery
This is the truth that closes in like darkness
No matter what kind of world we create, tomorrow is yet to be seen
As pure as the untainted lily
While our wishes remain transparent
(Truth~Arashi)
I saw Sho-kun fidgeted, either being clueless or thoughtful on how to start the conversation.
I took the initiative to start the conversation first by asking Sho, what was his reason to be friend with me in the first place.
Sho-kun looked at me abruptly, apparently wasn’t ready by the ambushed question. He looked at me long, searching in my eyes for some answers that he might not need to answer later or maybe searching for some confidence in me to be able to absorb some of the reality to be thrown at me within seconds.
I heard him let out a small sigh.
“Shin, I hope what I’m going to tell you in a moment won’t affect our friendship and your relationship with your current family ties”
I blinked in surprised.
“Current family ties? What are you talking about?”
C’mon Shin, you know what he talked about! Face the truth now…
Sho stares at me with serious expression plastered on his face.
“Shin, you and the guy in the picture are the same person and your real name is Aiba Masaki”
“HUH!!?? What are you talking about?”
So I am Aiba Masaki! Then who is Ryou Shin?
“Shin, let me ask you one thing,” Sho said, in a matter of fact tone.
I don’t want to answer any of your questions, Sho!
“Do you remember any of your past?”
No Sho, I don’t!
“What you did when you were younger?”
I can’t remember what I did when I was younger, damn it!
When is your birthday?
24 July 1982, if you are expecting Aiba’s I can’t remember that…
Who is your best friend?”
You and Momo, but now I need to reconsider you since you lied to me in the first place!
Sho-kun at threw a lot of questions at me at one go. He looked desperate while I was in dazed, thinking about all the answers. I’ve been doing some investigations before this but I still don’t want to accept it since I can’t remember anything. The truth is sure something painful to be deal with.
I read a lot of news posted about Aiba and his accident and now I think I might be connected with it. I faced up and asked Sho for some certainty.
“What happened to this Aiba Masaki?”
“Well he was involved in a brutal accident and cannot be recognized but only after Christmas that I know that he is still alive”
I might not like what the outcome of this conversation…
(SHIDA: Somehow I really made this fic as an angst-ongoing fic aren’t I? hehe… Okay I just want some of you guy’s opinion…Do you WANT a sequel for this fic (but sorry I still can’t write fluff fic)? I will based on the opinion on how many of you want and if I got more than ten I will consider a sequel ne… but the sequel will start after I got a broadband which probably by the end of Nov… SO I leave it up to you…XD again thanks for reading and for ur support minna…)
(Chapter Fourty-six)
“Nino, why are we in hiding in my house?” Aiba asked when he and Nino currently hiding behind a bush, acting like two innocent house breakers.
“Aiba, this is not your house! This is Ryou Shin house!” Nino corrected Aiba, as he looked around to check that they were not attracting anyone and be suspicious.
Aiba, who still haven’t used being called Aiba again stiffened a little when Nino called him by the name . He was also not used of being a stranger to Ryou household where he had been living for almost a year now.
While waiting for Nino to plan his master plan, Aiba thought about what had happened earlier, at the hospital when Nino yelled to him about him knowing Aiba being Aiba again. The way the past made his way to Aiba was still a mystery even for the owner himself. Aiba was still a bit clueless when the rest asked him about how and what did he remembered apart of his name, birth date , how he joined Johnny’s and Arashi and the most important part, did he remembered what really happened the night he was supposed to be his death day.
While in the car earlier, Nino did mention some of his theories about what might really happened. Nino assumed that all of this problems start the night Aiba had been attacked or worst maybe even before the attack as in Nino presumed that Aiba might have a stalker or an obsessive fan that that were willing to go to the extend of hurting the Idol himself.
Nino theory’s sent shivers down to Aiba’s spine along with worries. He never thought he is that popular enough to have an obsessive fan that were willing to do something as hurting him but thinking back about what had happened for the last eight months, everything was possible.
Nino even suggested that the weirdest thing that happened was how Aiba ended up being at Ryou’s household in the first place and how they automatically presumed that Aiba is their son without having no doubt in term of recognizing the difference of attitudes between the two men.
Nino also automatically said that they should also investigate about Shin’s background too (as Nino predicted that Shin might happened to look exactly the same as Aiba and made Aiba become more afraid of finding out the truth more).
If what Nino had predicted and presumed were right, that only mean one thing and that is the explanation. There will be a lot of explanations and fixing the fact need to be done such as the explanation to Ryou’s family about their son (along with the news of their son’s death) which happened 8 months ago. They also need to tell about Shin’s obsession about wanting to be Aiba by attacking Aiba, making him having amnesia, probably switching his personality and acted as Aiba but somehow at the same time he involved in the accident.
Nino also mentioned about Shin might hate his life so bad that he wanted Aiba’s life so badly. Nino might explained a lot more about it if Aiba didn’t stop him as by the time Aiba absorbed all the info, his head had hurt so much as he already started to regret of having his memory back.
Nino sensing his best friend rising tension and doubt and was ignoring him for about five minutes of his talking about the next plan crawl closer to Aiba and went to hug him without hesitation as Aiba stiffened in the warmth of the hug.
“Aiba, I know this is too much for you at the moment but don’t you think 8 months were already a long period of time of suffering is enough for you? You deserve to be happy and to tell you the truth, if Ryou Shin is alive, I might go to the extend of killing him by myself for taking your life away from you and your family and also from us! I know it was wrong to think about revenge and I don’t want you to feel miserable than you already were, therefore I’m willing to let go the ‘killing’ part” Nino joked, trying to lighten up the mood when he feels his shirt covered by soft moisturizer as Aiba was crying silently by the time Nino hold him earlier.
Aiba did laugh at the joke as he smacked lightly Nino head and he whispered “Baka!” while wiping his tears from his face.
“Just want you to know Aiba, whatever happens after this you will always have those who cares a lot for you and will be there for you 24/7! You have me, Jun, Ohno and Sho to help you and all we hope from you is to be strong and be brave and face it like a man ne…”
Aiba looked at Nino and nodded.
“So enough talking and lets take some action now!”
Seeing Aiba blurry face, Nino stand up and dragged Aiba along with him as they made their way to the house garden.
(SHIDA said: Yay I finally got my broadband!! Now I can online regularly after I finished work..XD hmm I got nothing to say at the moment…hehe…as usual thanks in advance for reading and for all your support minna…)