Odd dreams aka my (almost) debut in "South Pacific"
I've been having a run of really weird dreams lately (my poor brother, he's the first one I see in the morning so he gets to hear all about them...I like to think they brighten up his morning ;) ), but I think last night's was my favorite. I dreamed that some random high school that I happened to be affiliated with in some way (I think I was a student there, even though I was also a college student and my present age [20]) was putting on the Original Broadway Production of South Pacific, with Nathan Lane as the casting director. Oddly enough, Rodgers & Hammerstein were nowhere to be found. But anyways, they were casting the whole thing from this high school, except for the two leads, who were the OBC leads (Mary Martin and...Ezio Pinza, if I remember correctly. I know I'm right about Martin). I was extremely happy to find out that I was cast as Mary Martin's understudy (didn't dream the audition process though...) but all I could think about was how I'm not a dancer and how can I possibly dance this part? I seemed to have no qualms about singing it (although despite my occasional delusions about my voice, I know I'm not that good!), but was extremely worried about dancing. And if I remember correctly (from the movie at least), Nellie (Mary Martin's character) doesn't dance a whole lot. And then I woke up before we even got to rehearsal so all the worrying was for nothing! I just had a wonderful happy feeling that I was going to understudy Mary Martin and was apparently good enough to play Nellie. Wonderful self-esteem boost, even if "South Pacific" is really not one of my favorite shows...
I also remember being convinced that there a recording of the show existed with me playing Nellie. Even though we hadn't started rehearsals. One of those "remembering the future" type things, I guess. It was weird. But they thought I sang well enough to play Nellie. :D
I've also been looking over my past entries, and realized something: I like myself. :) If I randomly found this lj, I'd be interested in reading it. I think the entries are interesting. It's kind of a neat moment, to realize that yes, I do like myself. I mean, it's always kind of there in the back of my mind--I don't have abnormally high or low self esteem, but I don't usually think about how much I like or dislike myself. Aspects of myself and how I like certain aspects, I think about fairly frequently, but as a whole, not often. And I do--I like myself. :) It's always good to realize/remember that, I think.
I also remember being convinced that there a recording of the show existed with me playing Nellie. Even though we hadn't started rehearsals. One of those "remembering the future" type things, I guess. It was weird. But they thought I sang well enough to play Nellie. :D
I've also been looking over my past entries, and realized something: I like myself. :) If I randomly found this lj, I'd be interested in reading it. I think the entries are interesting. It's kind of a neat moment, to realize that yes, I do like myself. I mean, it's always kind of there in the back of my mind--I don't have abnormally high or low self esteem, but I don't usually think about how much I like or dislike myself. Aspects of myself and how I like certain aspects, I think about fairly frequently, but as a whole, not often. And I do--I like myself. :) It's always good to realize/remember that, I think.