Be A Visionary
Ok so I had my time to mope and I'm ready to stop being such a bitch. I'm really embarrassed by these feelings of loss and jealousy, so I'm going to confront them head on with my art. Like Talib Kweli says, "Stop acting like a bitch already and be a visionary..." so that's what I'm going to do. I dont know, it almost feels like im rejoicing in my mediocrity but I guess I agree with what Stefan said to me last night. He knows his writing will never make him famous, he knows he'll never be celbrity, and I know I wont either. I know I won't ever be considered the best at anything, or even second best probably. I'll be canonical, included in anyones top 10 anything. Trying means more than notoriety in the end anyways. I mean take a look at Elvis Presley vs. Elvis Costello. Sure one is considered one of the greatest influences in rock and roll of all time, but who do you respect more based on sheer volume of material? Costello has been working for so long and put so much out there, some of it very mediocre, but some intesnely artistic. I've put a lot of work into what I do and that means something to me at least. It's time to put a lot more in, and that will be my story. Along the way I'll pick up baggage so my story isn't completely boring.