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Is it possible to ever feel connected to anything? Probably not.
I was on a good kick for awhile, excited about art. And then I let frustrations get in the way today and now I"m back on the downward swing. And anyone I try to talk to, I know it only comes off as complaining. "Try to stay excited" "You can do it". Can I? I doubt it now.
I don't know what to do with my life. I don't know what to do as a job anymore that actually makes me want to get up in the mornings. Where I work now is not going to improve with how things are going. I'm regretting my choice to move here, but revealed that I"m not where I was. Is that all I'm ever going to have a choice of?
I need to find a connection somewhere. But no one seems to get just how hard it is to motivate myself to do anything. I'll be all for things in the morning, but after the work day is done, I just lose all motivation. Probably I'm just lazy. Guess that's all I'll be.
I was on a good kick for awhile, excited about art. And then I let frustrations get in the way today and now I"m back on the downward swing. And anyone I try to talk to, I know it only comes off as complaining. "Try to stay excited" "You can do it". Can I? I doubt it now.
I don't know what to do with my life. I don't know what to do as a job anymore that actually makes me want to get up in the mornings. Where I work now is not going to improve with how things are going. I'm regretting my choice to move here, but revealed that I"m not where I was. Is that all I'm ever going to have a choice of?
I need to find a connection somewhere. But no one seems to get just how hard it is to motivate myself to do anything. I'll be all for things in the morning, but after the work day is done, I just lose all motivation. Probably I'm just lazy. Guess that's all I'll be.