Vaction...Sorta
Well we just packed up everything Friday night and headed up to Grandfather Mountain. I mean, I have lived in this area all my life but never realized what a beautiful place it was. Maybe now I'm just starting to notice all the beauty around me. One of the reasons I even wanted to go up there to start with was to find a place to have our wedding. I wanted it somewhere out in nature, where I feel the strongest. Justin has left all of it up to me. There is just so much to do. I'm hoping we will be ready and my strength holds out. I have decided I want a traditional Handfasting. Even though those arent legal in NC, we have decided to become legally married as soon as my divorce is finalized. That way regardless we will be married. So I guess people wonder why I want to go through with the rest of it. Well there are people I want here. His family for one. I mean California is such a long way from here, and regardless of what he says, I know he wants them here.
When I met him 3 years ago never in my wildest dreams did I believe we would ever get to this point. The point where I threw all my securities to the wind, walk away from a life of petty relationships, that I knew would go nowhere and let this man take me into his life forever. I know in my heart he would never hurt me, and I know there is nothing nor noone out there who would ever sway me from him. I have never ever had that with anyone else, not even the man I married. For the past 2 years Justin has put me first. Before anything else. Even when I have pushed and tested his love and devotion. He never moved.
Sometimes I have a hard time telling him what I feel, sometimes I wish he would sneek a peek at this, but I know he has so much other things to do. But I just wish I could make him feel the way I'm feeling right now, so loved, so secure, almost wraped up in the emotion we share.He is my alpha and omega. My beginning and end. I look ahead at my future and he is there. Without him, there is no future. I cant even remember a past where he didnt exist. From the firt time he said hello to me, till last night when he told me goodnight he loved me. Before and in between there has never been another. Not really. I could name a dozen whom I have cared for deeply, and still worry about sometimes, but there was never another to complete me the way he does. Everything else was just out of reach. Close enough to touch, but never to hold.
Well this was suppose to be about our vaction, but as usual it has turned into a "Justin is My God" rant. LoL.
Ladies, here is some advice......those younger guys...YUMMY!
When I met him 3 years ago never in my wildest dreams did I believe we would ever get to this point. The point where I threw all my securities to the wind, walk away from a life of petty relationships, that I knew would go nowhere and let this man take me into his life forever. I know in my heart he would never hurt me, and I know there is nothing nor noone out there who would ever sway me from him. I have never ever had that with anyone else, not even the man I married. For the past 2 years Justin has put me first. Before anything else. Even when I have pushed and tested his love and devotion. He never moved.
Sometimes I have a hard time telling him what I feel, sometimes I wish he would sneek a peek at this, but I know he has so much other things to do. But I just wish I could make him feel the way I'm feeling right now, so loved, so secure, almost wraped up in the emotion we share.He is my alpha and omega. My beginning and end. I look ahead at my future and he is there. Without him, there is no future. I cant even remember a past where he didnt exist. From the firt time he said hello to me, till last night when he told me goodnight he loved me. Before and in between there has never been another. Not really. I could name a dozen whom I have cared for deeply, and still worry about sometimes, but there was never another to complete me the way he does. Everything else was just out of reach. Close enough to touch, but never to hold.
Well this was suppose to be about our vaction, but as usual it has turned into a "Justin is My God" rant. LoL.
Ladies, here is some advice......those younger guys...YUMMY!