the tide that brings everything back to shore, eventually.
I've had a moment-- as I have these moments from time to time-- that has reminded me how necessary it is for me to be a positive force. And I don't need to be a positive force only to help a world (and specifically, a generation: our generation) that is facing an ass load of negativity, but it's really just part of who I am as a person. I've been on and off lost since I got here-- heck, maybe even a little before hand too-- in part because I've forgotten that.
This is no "don't worry, be happy", smile-in-your-face sort of shit. Positivity is not equivalent to ignorance. It's not unbridled idealism. But it is the art of dealing. The art of understanding. It's compassion, especially in all of those places where you're most reluctant to place compassion. And, in at least some small part, it's something that I've not been confronting nearly as well as I should-- getting over it.
It's easy to make yourself feel belittled, foolish, or pretentious when you're attempting to be truthful to yourself. And it's tough to do that sort of thing anyway without hocking sentimental loogies all over the place. But right now it feels alright. And it feels optimistic. And I feel fulfilled... or at least I'm on my way.
This is no "don't worry, be happy", smile-in-your-face sort of shit. Positivity is not equivalent to ignorance. It's not unbridled idealism. But it is the art of dealing. The art of understanding. It's compassion, especially in all of those places where you're most reluctant to place compassion. And, in at least some small part, it's something that I've not been confronting nearly as well as I should-- getting over it.
It's easy to make yourself feel belittled, foolish, or pretentious when you're attempting to be truthful to yourself. And it's tough to do that sort of thing anyway without hocking sentimental loogies all over the place. But right now it feels alright. And it feels optimistic. And I feel fulfilled... or at least I'm on my way.